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I'm a cancer.I'm left handed and I'm in love with gelly roll pens. It's not a good combination. I have NO idea how to play any card games. I can probably make anybody laugh. The only song that makes me sob no matter what is "Goodbye My Lover" By James Blunt. I laugh at serious things and am serious at the funny things. I am way too sarcastic for my own good. i love Arizona Green Tea and Diet Coke. Although diet coke with lime makes me want to die.i HATE talking on the phone. Text Messaging is probably my life. along with my green cell, green ipod, green purse, & green convertible! A lot of people call me a hippie, i guess questionmark. I use words like "fantastic, outrageous, and ridiculous" way too much and it catches on. Disney movies leave me with a sinking feeling in my stomach. When I was little I made all the boys throw up with my mean tire swinging skills. I hate crying in front of people.The only makeup I wear is eyeliner. I tend to look tired too often. I wear sandals all year long, even in the snow. I don't believe that I belong here. Long peasant skirts and vintage jewelry is my favorite. I'm 5'7 and I wish I could wear big ridiculous heels. My dog is my best friend. I manage to get myself into some shitty situations, always learning each lesson the hard way. I don't have my ears pierced, never have. When I got my belly button pierced I passed out 5 minutes AFTERWARDS. I never really let people get to know me. When Fall Out Boy comes up on shuffle, i PRETEND to be appauled. I am extremely judgemental but I usually keep it to myself. i ditch people, A LOT. I love my alone time. Clothing and furniture are probably my two biggest obsessions. More specifically Urban Outfitters & iKEA. I don't believe anyone can "fall out of love." I am CONSTANTLY doing laundry, seriously. I may be guilty of buying laundry detergent just because the bottle was green. I have really weird eating habits. I run but I always have to drag myself there. It's an ass kicking twenty four seven. I'm probably addicted to the internet but only because I love words. I've been involved in drama once and it ruined my life. My new view is if you didn't hear it from the person who did it, it didn't happen. I hate myspace for that very reason. You learn a lot of things you were never supposed to know because of this place. School is most definitely not my strong point. I'm motivated about almost nothing. I know only one person that understands me, and that hits every nerve of my emotions. I hate pot. It doesn't "Free your soul" and it doesn't make you "cool". So shut the fuck up about it. I am SO picky when it comes to friends. I try and make the best of whatever is thrown my way. I wish I could learn everything about why people do the things they do. My parents divorced when I was a freshman and since then I've more or less been "on my own" emotionally. My mom was home, but she wasn't "home." Living with her now is like living with a sister. Her boyfriend wears elastic jeans. ....i think thats all i need to say about that. I love change but in so many ways i'm scared to death of it. I 100% believe that if you want something to work out don't tell anyone about it. I love knowing I've been thought about. I love giving people presents. A lot of my days begin with 2 aleve. I'm a liar and sometimes I'm not even sure why. If my leg hurts, sometimes I'll say "god i have a headache." for no reason at all. I'm super strange and only a few people can even see that. I've been told I'm too "intellectual" for some. If I can hold a conversation with you, and you're not confused. You're a badass. I'm not competitive at all. I rewrite my about me too much. I'm never really satisfied. My ultimate goal is to just be out of Naperville, & happy with myself. I love my brother and I think he is probably the best thing that I got out of growing up. He inadvertantly introduced me to everything that I like. Music, movies, sense of humor, etc. I wish I had tons of family, and I wish we were all close. My dysfunctional family at dinner is like a table of complete strangers. I can cry at the drop of a hat. That little dancing old guy from the six flags commercial is my hero. Every best friend I've ever had has moved away. I was born on June 26th at 9:44 at night. I make a big deal out of the little things. Those are most important to me. My purse is a lime green sweatshirt that I bought in Ibiza, Spain. I spent two weeks in Italy and want nothing more than to go back. I believe in love at first sight. The chemistry will be there right off the bat, or it will never be there. I HATE saying that I'm sorry. Usually I can describe myself as a people pleaser, but at this point I've developed more of a "if you don't like it, too bad" sort of an outlook. I can ramble like it's my job. I really want to write a book. I think I almost need to. I contradict myself probably twenty times a day. I'm figuring out who I am and what I like, sue me. I really wish that I didn't hate my dad. Someday I hope to forgive him and establish a real relationship. But another part of me wants to forget he exists. I'm always a little bit late and what I need is always at the bottom of my purse. I people watch too much. The best way to sum up my life is "everything is a project."