So I'm getting kicked out soon. Because my dad doesn't like a challenge. I'm making plans, but it's so freaking hard. I don't know what to do. Everything rides on Alex's mom ( Read more... )

Well its like its always been-
No family, like always.

Oh well.

I'm getting a bit tired of this ( Read more... )

So my home life is horrible. I'm constantly under fire. I'm at loss of what to do and how to handle this. I'm very sensitive and all the shit I have to listen to is very mentally tiresome. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm hardly ever happy. I know that this has been happening for years, and for those years I've tolerated it; Thinking that ( Read more... )

I hate Alex. He has got to be the most insensitive guy I've met. I put so much damn effort. It isn't fucking worth it.

Did he not realize that it takes a lot of effort to keep a relationship up and running?

I gotta have a talk w/ him, and convince him that we need to be friends. I cant deal with this anymore.

He lied to me.

Distance, sweet serenity at last?
Spoken my last.
This will be a tough journey.
I am strong.
I am woman.

why do i try so god damned hard? to make someone see what they are missing. and yet im broken in the beginning. how can i  do something wonderful if i cant even give to myself? gah, trivial matters are always the ones overseen till too late. i loved him. what did i see? taken for a ride called love. it will kick you around, mess with your mind till ( Read more... )

Its like not having Alex at all.

Trying to hard dear?
Gave it my best.
Said too much?
Possibly.
Gave it your all?
Yes, Dear. I tried hard.

Forget the times?
Near impossible, but sure.
Why not?

The more I think of the future,the more I don't think its worth it.

Can one live off happiness?