hi hi hi there... feeling very awful today but body wise not head wise.. im all good head wise for the moment anyway. Well here we go.. Last night i went to Ben's 18th and when i first got there i was so BORED.. but then i went and got my goon from louise's house and started to drink. I got kinda tipsy but that was it.. drank i think about half a ( Read more... )

well i feel like absoloute shit.. and i mean shit. I am so confused. my head is going in circles.. my heart is all over the place just waiting to be trampled. I never know where i stand. I am so scared of being used again. i know this feeling too well. its like a tightness in your chest, and you feel sick in the stomach.. i think its time for the ( Read more... )

These Gay quizzes... hehehe i want to stop doing them but they keep opening another one, and i cant not do it. i think its funny that by a few gay questions, they seem to know a lot about you :P Oh well... Oh god i just did what sex and the city star are you.. i got carrie.. i guess im ok with that.. she's cool. ARGGGHHHH - it just keeps opening up ( Read more... )

Hey hey.. I have just been hangin out lately.. doing stuff with friends.. really just been hanging out with casey before she starts work at a dentists.. eek ( Read more... )

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Silly Janelle. Got very very very drunk last night... made THE biggest fool out of myself! im so ashamed.. im tempted to walk the edge... hahahah, dunno wouldnt be hard, all i would have to do is quit drinking and eating animal products, its not like i do drugs or smoke... oh well ponder that one. Have to go to brisbane tomorrow. Went to the ( Read more... )

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This is so rediculous..i cant talk to anyone about it though. Im not complaining..there is something wrong with me. i cant stop crying. i cant stop thinking. i cant stop hurting. i cant help it. im getting worse. im going to go to bed in a minute otherwise ill just sit here crying all night while boys talk about games, their dicks, their computers ( Read more... )

Yes, I have got it, and i dont want it, but i cant help it. So im apoligising to everyone especially Ben for taking out on you all most of the time. I am seeing a doctor on thursday. People think that its not a big deal but i cant begin to describe how it feels to be ecstatically happy one hour and then bawling your eyes out over nothing the next ( Read more... )

What to do what to do... Bored as all hell..nothing to do at all tonight. Didnt go to that thing in Bisbane.. probably should have i promised Joe that i would but im sure it wasnt that big a deal. I went out and got tipsy last night... i sobered up really quickly and ended up having a shocking night, had to walk home 7 kilometres in the rain from ( Read more... )