Shou/Saga - Alice Nine - Stolen Moments - Oneshot/Drabble
Stolen Moments
Story Written by Tokiko
It's moments like these. When strands of your hair is misplaced sticking together on your face. Where your eye shadow is fading away. While your eye liner is smudged. Though your eye lashes remain long. Your defined nose that defines you. Especially those soft pink lips reminiscent of two cherry blossom petals falling together from its tree. As notable as your milky white skin like porcelain that's too delicate to touch which it sometimes seems. And when it's less expected the tiniest freckle appears below your jawline as though it was hiding before. Where also beads of sweat trickle down your neck then disappear into the collar of your shirt.
These too are moments I wish I can be that bead of sweat or even that disappearing freckle. Just to touch that milky white skin or any part of you intimately. But all of this only lasts for a moment. This feeling. This image. So before it's gone I keep it with a click and maybe a flash. Then I'll snap back to reality with the memory in my hand. It's good enough is what I'd remind yourself.
In the end of the day I'd find myself looking at your face in a small screen in my hand. Sometimes I want to put all these moments up on the wall. But I'm afraid what I might do afterwards. Or what if you see them. What would you say? What would you think . . . of me? More than these moments, I'm afraid to lose you. Then again, if these moments stop presenting itself, I won't need these anymore.
There are nights I'd just close my eyes and see your face. Then I'd feel a warmth against my back and around my body. A weight comes down on my shoulder and hot breath blows behind my ear. I'd then call a name that isn't yours.
"Tora?"
He'll say these words ...
"I wish you'd look at me like you look at those pictures of him."
... and I'd open my eyes, relieved it's not you that I see. But my chest becomes twisted inside.
I'd laugh to hide the fact of how hopeless I felt because of you. While he tightens his embrace.
"I wish so too."
I'd say while deep within I wish it was your warmth I felt around me.