as much grief and stupid complex problems that everything has been turned into....everyone always asks me this question when I mention that I'm trying to maintain a long distance "friendship/relationship". I explain to them that we are not dating and I'm in this struggle of whether to move on about my own or try to maintain a friendship that used ( Read more... )

it's like I want to trust my heart and run with it, but it's being stopped by all these outside forces and inconveniences by the one I love. I just don't get it and I'm just really really getting overwhelmed by it to a point I'm just feeling like facing the music and turning it off. Not that I don't to be with him, but because it's just been made ( Read more... )

has given me an alternative of where to post blogs. I've always liked posting in livejournal, but getting into myspace has just created a bit more of an atmosphere with seeing everyone's pictures etc. Just in case my myspace is Chevy, which can be found my my email mesmerize15@hotmail.com ( Read more... )

You know when you see those commercials on tv about depression or bi-polar disorders. How would one know if they have an issue? I mean because we all have our days and I don't think anyone would really pick up on themselves. I don't think of myself as being depressed, but I just hate not being my normal happy. I mean now it's like segments of me ( Read more... )

Yes,christmas is right around the corner now. I didn't have too much christmas shopping to do since are family has sort of "gorwn" out of the christmas holiday things. Plus, my parents are doing their own thing while my brother and I do ours. At the moment I'm just focused on christmas with Steve and his family. I've completed my shopping for him ( Read more... )

I'm really surprised at how many friends actually still use livejournal when there is myspace. Then again though this is a bit more private and less dramatic. Also provides more of an outlet to what you really want to type and whats really on your mind without censoring it too much since there's not a bagillion of people reading it.

Last night ( Read more... )

Once upon a time I used to blog on here all the time...until a very useful network came around called myspace. However, as time went on and my hookups happened....I came across one that I actually felt was the one I had been waiting on. In this quest for happiness that I've been on for years now, lol I know I'm only 20, I think I have found one of ( Read more... )

No fancy writing, no fancy colors, I just want to write. It's been soooo long since I've posted on here so I'm pretty sure no one will read this. Everyone has somewhat transferred over to myspace. Atleast I know I did, atleast I could get comments on there lol. No, but I couldn't find my real diary and so here I am to just let it all out ( Read more... )

If so would anyone have cared? haha nah

*sigh* once again it's been a while, hell I haven't updated since last year in Thanksgiving! oh boy, well I'm on my own in a house in DeLand which actually I'm about to leave to move back to daytona. I miss it so much! I miss beach volleyball, my riding buddies, the beach, the actiong, the bars, and then ( Read more... )

Whoa! It has been a long ass time since I've updated....been busy and not stuck in a dorm room as often. Plus when I come home I find myself either taking a nap/sleeping, on myspace, or out the door again.

Not a whole lot has been going on..working a lot, made a's and b's this semester. *sigh* all of my accounting is out of the way!! I'm so siked ( Read more... )