Personal (Distress) Log
Well, right now I'm in my quarters. With Linnis.
She was injured in one of the ancient Turbolifts this ship has.
I've sent a report on to Captain Archer, and hopefully they fix that junction, or lift. Whatever caused her injury.
I'm just glad that I walked her back to her Quarters. If she had gone alone...I'm sure the impact would have been dangerous, if not lethal.
Lethal.
That's another thing that's been bothering me.
I was at movie night with Hoshi, but I felt concerned enough by Linnis' look of either nausea or something else, to go check on her in the corridor.
Sure, going into the Turbolift with her possibly saved her life (which makes us even now I think), but this incident has just reopened old wounds.
I think I'm still attracted to her.
And what rips me open:
Possibly love her.
The only thing keeping me sane is the Doc's lessons on Medic-Patient relations. If it wasn't for that, I'm sure I could have snapped and given in by now.
The thing is, what do I say to her? What do I say to Hoshi? I abandoned not only Hoshi, but a Captain Proton I had NEVER SEEN. I had to leave her alone there at the Movie Night!
Had to. It wasn't a 'Had to' until Linnis was injured. Now, as a Medic, this far from Sickbay, I need to keep an eye on her as a Professional.
But, honestly, I swear to god, it's tough.
It's like a sadistic form of Multiverse torture, since we could never be together. It'd never be accepted socially, but it's still on my mind. Why?!
I think I'm being barely held together by Tuvok's meditation sessions, the Doc's professionalism and a piece of gum.
If I was a Starship right now, I wouldn't even be as fit for flight as the "Apollo 13".
What the hell am I going to do?!
She was injured in one of the ancient Turbolifts this ship has.
I've sent a report on to Captain Archer, and hopefully they fix that junction, or lift. Whatever caused her injury.
I'm just glad that I walked her back to her Quarters. If she had gone alone...I'm sure the impact would have been dangerous, if not lethal.
Lethal.
That's another thing that's been bothering me.
I was at movie night with Hoshi, but I felt concerned enough by Linnis' look of either nausea or something else, to go check on her in the corridor.
Sure, going into the Turbolift with her possibly saved her life (which makes us even now I think), but this incident has just reopened old wounds.
I think I'm still attracted to her.
And what rips me open:
Possibly love her.
The only thing keeping me sane is the Doc's lessons on Medic-Patient relations. If it wasn't for that, I'm sure I could have snapped and given in by now.
The thing is, what do I say to her? What do I say to Hoshi? I abandoned not only Hoshi, but a Captain Proton I had NEVER SEEN. I had to leave her alone there at the Movie Night!
Had to. It wasn't a 'Had to' until Linnis was injured. Now, as a Medic, this far from Sickbay, I need to keep an eye on her as a Professional.
But, honestly, I swear to god, it's tough.
It's like a sadistic form of Multiverse torture, since we could never be together. It'd never be accepted socially, but it's still on my mind. Why?!
I think I'm being barely held together by Tuvok's meditation sessions, the Doc's professionalism and a piece of gum.
If I was a Starship right now, I wouldn't even be as fit for flight as the "Apollo 13".
What the hell am I going to do?!