Brain is dying. Heart is dying. Grandma is dying. No fun.

YES YES YES YES YES

I'm pretty sure that was the last straw. I'm taking you out of the equation now. I think after four years of our constant dance, I'm finally ready.

All three look awesome from where I'm standing.

I'm no good at bringing you up to speed on the things that are happening in my life. Things are good. I know why I am staying in akron now. I can feel some stuff boiling up in me and it's really nice to know I can still feel those things.

When I left my house at 11 this morning everything looked like it should. Like it always does. When I came home from work 9 hours later, every picture hanging on the wall was packed. Within the next four days, my house will be empty. Last night was the last time I'll sleep in my room and I didn't even know it. I'm so sentimental, I can't really ( Read more... )

why the fuck am I staying in akron.

After leaving you out in the snow, the rain, and the blistering heat, finally, your layers are starting to peel back. You are opening up to me. You are telling me how you think. You are rewarding me for all of my hard work. And as we get closer, of course, this happens. I don't want to move. I want to stay. I want to stay for you.

ugh, I totally let my brain go through these stupid stages. So one day, I'll look at him, or more like, think about him and say, wait, why is this still going on? Ten months? Sometimes I can't feel anything in my stomach or in my chest and I just think it's all a waste. And then we'll spend some time together, maybe alot in a small chunk of time ( ( Read more... )

I guess it's sorta sad when you look at a majority of the people you dated (3/4), and you realize they are all with the people they will probably marry.