Temporary soulmate
I know it's the honeymoon phase and I'm infatuated with this person, but for the first time it feels like I have a real boyfriend. It's not a feeling I particularly missed or was repulsed by, but his company is exactly what I needed.
We just fit.
When we're together we don't discuss beliefs, philosophies, argue, etc. We just comment on what's happening in front of us. What's going on right now. Comment, つっこむ, laugh, move on.
I suppose that may due to the nature of the Japanese language, however. Or my perceived nature of the Japanese language. What do I know.
Needless to say, I enjoy the fluidity of it all. I feel like myself, all the time. I'm not stuck trying to think of the right thing to say in the moment, despite Japanese being my third language. Obviously I make grammatical mistakes, but that's different.
We don't talk about our futures very much, either. He hasn't asked me what type of career I'd like to pursue and what not. I probably prefer this because I don't have much confidence when it comes to my future, career, goals and what not. lol, I'm 24 and I don't even have a real job yet! lol and I don't care.
The only future-related thing we've talked about is the cafe we'll be opening together in Japan. Then after I meet Ohno and we get married I'm kicking him out and turning it into a panya, LOL. He knows this XDD
Our time together is so ゆっくり I still can't believe it's been less than a month since we had our first date. Feels longer.
Omg and allow me for one moment to flail over his perfect body: AFJ;HDXGLLDSSADKJDSADJLJSADJJHHHHNNNNNGGGGGGGFF
Whew.
Right now, we're just two beings floating around the same area and time on Earth eating sweets, sipping coffee, bubble tea, singing/dancing to Arashi, and just being us.
Besides 1 other person, I've never had so many positive things to say about how someone has made me feel. So I had to spill it online orz
Ironically I could never say all this to him. I guess that's because it doesn't have to be said :)
The most I can do is show him my love, and thank him in the moment.
I'm starting to gag at how utterly cheesy and ridiculous this post is. Sorry for making errbody barf.