kibum spaaaam.
Last part.
underlined, part III: family
kibum/donghae, pg-13, ~600 words. it's like, introspective. or tries to be.
The reason Kibum doesn't say much, sometimes, is not because he thinks too much. He thinks about as much as anyone, he figures, but for some reason, he thinks about the way he will say things longer than most. He opens his mouth and his brain is still processing, so he laughs awkwardly and says something, and when he doesn't have a script to rely on, the camera pointing straight at him, he doesn't know why it's so difficult, it simply is.
*
It makes sense that it's Donghae who kisses him first. Kibum himself is not sure how they ever crossed over from being friends who hug a lot - just hug, nothing weird or suggestive about it - to friends who maybe really love each other and kiss and are maybe sort of together. Donghae tastes like really spicy kimchi and Kibum later comments how Donghae should maybe brush his teeth more often, and when Donghae lists Kibum's own last meal and then Kibum shuts up. Whatever, it doesn't matter. In the end whoever you kiss, they all taste like their last meal. Not of rainbows and sunshine because rainbows and sunshine don't fucking taste like anything.
Donghae's really all too comfortable with dating Kibum and Kibum is sure Heechul notices and everybody notices and knows. This would make him feel weird if it wasn't for the fact that for the first time in his life, he's in a relationship he really wants to be in.
So what if it's with a band member, huge no-no in anybody's books. So what.
*
Management moves them into the same building, just different floors. Kibum misses their old apartment, comfortable and cramped and actually kind of shit, but he misses it, as irrational as it may be.
“Get fucking over it,” Heechul tells him. “You have a bigger room now.”
But it's not his room.
*
Rehearsing with Donghae begins to turn into a make out session every time, and then a little more, because Donghae loves pretending to be stupid, and Kibum can't just tell what foreplay is, apparently he also has to show it.
Donghae apparently doesn't know what a handjob is, either.
Or a hickey.
*
Their new concept is weird. Everything about it is weird, and Kibum's certain whatever they're doing is a huge failure, but he doesn't say it, because it would really suck if he was right.
Lucky for him, he's quite often wrong.
*
Sometimes the members joke that in pictures, Kibum often looks like he doesn't want to be there.
That's not true.
He looks like that, he thinks, maybe because he's just marvelling at the fact that he is there. He really is there.
Or maybe he should just learn how to pose better, he admits. It's a process.
*
He gets used to the new home. Home, because it is a home, and it becomes a home, little by little, and he enjoys the lack of quiet and the constant buzz. It's home because he's never alone, and because he never gets the opportunity to feel lonely.
He can't escape anything, not even in the bathroom, and he would hate this if he didn't already love it.
It's weird.
If Super Junior was a family, Kibum thinks, and then doesn't, because he's drunk and Heechul's got an arm around his shoulders, and he's laughing for reasons he can no longer remember.
It's a celebration for something, 3rd jib or their second movie or whatever have you, and they're all there, all of them, for a change.
Kibum's happy and he can't wait to pass out on a soft bed, maybe next to Donghae, and if Super Junior was a family, but Super Junior is a family, and there really needn't be anything to add to that, or to change it.
---
This fails at being KiHae but I will use the excuse that it's really about Kibum and whatever pairings you get is just bonus.
underlined, part III: family
kibum/donghae, pg-13, ~600 words. it's like, introspective. or tries to be.
The reason Kibum doesn't say much, sometimes, is not because he thinks too much. He thinks about as much as anyone, he figures, but for some reason, he thinks about the way he will say things longer than most. He opens his mouth and his brain is still processing, so he laughs awkwardly and says something, and when he doesn't have a script to rely on, the camera pointing straight at him, he doesn't know why it's so difficult, it simply is.
*
It makes sense that it's Donghae who kisses him first. Kibum himself is not sure how they ever crossed over from being friends who hug a lot - just hug, nothing weird or suggestive about it - to friends who maybe really love each other and kiss and are maybe sort of together. Donghae tastes like really spicy kimchi and Kibum later comments how Donghae should maybe brush his teeth more often, and when Donghae lists Kibum's own last meal and then Kibum shuts up. Whatever, it doesn't matter. In the end whoever you kiss, they all taste like their last meal. Not of rainbows and sunshine because rainbows and sunshine don't fucking taste like anything.
Donghae's really all too comfortable with dating Kibum and Kibum is sure Heechul notices and everybody notices and knows. This would make him feel weird if it wasn't for the fact that for the first time in his life, he's in a relationship he really wants to be in.
So what if it's with a band member, huge no-no in anybody's books. So what.
*
Management moves them into the same building, just different floors. Kibum misses their old apartment, comfortable and cramped and actually kind of shit, but he misses it, as irrational as it may be.
“Get fucking over it,” Heechul tells him. “You have a bigger room now.”
But it's not his room.
*
Rehearsing with Donghae begins to turn into a make out session every time, and then a little more, because Donghae loves pretending to be stupid, and Kibum can't just tell what foreplay is, apparently he also has to show it.
Donghae apparently doesn't know what a handjob is, either.
Or a hickey.
*
Their new concept is weird. Everything about it is weird, and Kibum's certain whatever they're doing is a huge failure, but he doesn't say it, because it would really suck if he was right.
Lucky for him, he's quite often wrong.
*
Sometimes the members joke that in pictures, Kibum often looks like he doesn't want to be there.
That's not true.
He looks like that, he thinks, maybe because he's just marvelling at the fact that he is there. He really is there.
Or maybe he should just learn how to pose better, he admits. It's a process.
*
He gets used to the new home. Home, because it is a home, and it becomes a home, little by little, and he enjoys the lack of quiet and the constant buzz. It's home because he's never alone, and because he never gets the opportunity to feel lonely.
He can't escape anything, not even in the bathroom, and he would hate this if he didn't already love it.
It's weird.
If Super Junior was a family, Kibum thinks, and then doesn't, because he's drunk and Heechul's got an arm around his shoulders, and he's laughing for reasons he can no longer remember.
It's a celebration for something, 3rd jib or their second movie or whatever have you, and they're all there, all of them, for a change.
Kibum's happy and he can't wait to pass out on a soft bed, maybe next to Donghae, and if Super Junior was a family, but Super Junior is a family, and there really needn't be anything to add to that, or to change it.
---
This fails at being KiHae but I will use the excuse that it's really about Kibum and whatever pairings you get is just bonus.