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Andromeda and I had a huge fight. My sisters were privy to the first part of it. They kept on asking me questions all the way home. My 'rents pulled me aside and said they were worried about me because I hadn't been writing home, and that whenever I come home I seemed worried sick and ready to snap. I told them it was just Head Boy duties getting to me, but my dad looked at me square and said, "Bullshit."
Keep on running the things that 'Dromeda Andromeda yelled at me, and some of the awful things I said to her. Jesus Christ, I made her cry for fuck's sake. You don't make people you cared care(?!) about cry like that, you don't make them feel that worthless. 'Snot like it matters much, though, since she obviously doesn't want me around, or even try to be around anymore--for fuck's sake, stop sounding so self-pitying.
I get more then angry every time I think about what she might've gone through at home. Her family is batshit crazy, barbaric, and disgusting. Didn't fully realize it until Lucius thought he'd be doing everyone a favour by hinting at what happened---and then go out and say it. Makes my stomach sick. Haven't been able to eat breakfast since I came back, since Andromeda and I used to get to breakfast 'round the same time, and every time I look up over my bowl of cereal and see her at the Ravenclaw table I just want to throw up because of all the shite things she went through, and shite things I said.
I'm going to skip classes tomorrow. Sleep in some. I need to fucking get over this now. It's not just me being miserable anymore. I keep on saying shite things, and Lils is right--I am starting to sound like a Death Eater.
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