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[tonofbricks]

So yes, this schedule is getting tough on me. Not seeing friends ever. Not seeing dad on the weekends. Not seeing mom during the week. But.. I'm making it the best it can be. It's a different kind of feeling. Not being able to see friends for a month because you happen to have other social events on EVERY Saturday: to me, this is no big deal. But

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[swingset_chainn]

Girl, its hard to balance friendships with what is bedst for you. Who cares what you are in high school because you are only in high school for four years of your ENTIRE life. Focus more on what you like and what will get you places. the world cup for horse showing, thats fucking awesome. Thats something that only 20 people can do and im sure no one from ewing high has had the chance to do it. so, although its tough, the ones that are there for you will always be there for you and maybe you are beyond high school. dont let it get you down because look at what you are getting yourself into, and look at the good friends you will be making up by your mom. fuck HS, people need to grow up anyway and i think you already have

[tonofbricks]

aw, that made me really happy. i like that perspective, i guess i didn't really think about how it's only four years of my whole life, you know? i'll be showing horses all my life, but how long am i going to be going to parties with these kids? thanks grl<3

[swingset_chainn]

honestly. parties dont really matter, you may think they do at this point in your life. but its only this point in your life. You have college to look forward to. Majority of the friends you make in life and keep for your lifetime will be from college, not from high school. I mean its true that some friendships will last but high school and anything previous is something you have to deall with until you get out of there. You were put into ewing high, you cant change the people and you didnt really get a choice. you were forced to grow up with the people you call friends but when college comes its all about you. you choose where to go, you choose your friends, you choose to go out. you choose everything. partying shouldnt be your main concern because you are still very young. who cares if they party it up either, i never went to parties in high school and i managed to keep tight friendships. like lok at me and christie, we still talk and are still close and we never worried about partying together. you just have to realize

[tonofbricks]

i know, i just don't want to go through two years of not having ANYONE. at least this year, i have tina and d (and i see dev in the hallways!), but next year it's going to be no oneeee, unless i have a class with dev. i know that partying isn't everything, but it's the latest "social event" so it just sucks not being able to be at them, and then losing my tight hold on some of my once closest friends. :/

[eight314]

whaaat, competing in south africa?
i was telling tina last weekend that i wished friends hugged in the hall more often, but that i never see anyone to hug, so it was nice that we did today. i don't really have a grouuup of friends in school either, which i guess is pretty obvious.. whatever, i talk to autum mason the most, a lot of people think she's really annoying, but i think she's pretty cool.
claire has this one friend, who happens to be 12 like barngirl. she's pretty cool and i'd want to be her friend except claire claims that "she hates me because all my myspace pictures look the same."
... i don't know. we can talk about this together though.

[tonofbricks]

AW! LOL, "barngirl" (her name is theresa by the way, just in case i mention her again!) yo, claire and her myspace; well, when these 12 girls come into high school, we can be friends with them. and we'll be cool seniors or something...

[hoppipollaaa]

i feel like we should all just get together and talk. that'd probably help us all with our silly problems.
i didn't realize who my real friends were until i was way out of high school. high school is nothing when it comes to friendships, because no one at all knows what they really want. i met all of my best friends in high school, but didn't get close with most of them until after. maybe that's just me, though. i don't think anyone has like a set clique anymore and sometimes it's better that way.
i'm just kind of rambling right now, but i really do want to come that weekend you posted about before. your house looks cool and it'll be fun. oh and south africa sounds awesome. go for it, girl!

[tonofbricks]

maybe when we're at my house we can all have a good talk. i really can't wait, i haven't been together with all the girls in such a long time! and i guess people DON'T really have bffs in high school, but i guess what i meant is that when you come HOME from college, those are the people you see, you know? those are the people you want to hang out with, because you know them the best; you grew up with them.

[eggcellent]

i don't think people know who their best friends are in high school at all. high school is brutal, and friends come and go. the true ones will be there after graduation.

i dunno julie, just don't get down on yourself because you think you're not in the "cool" crowd.

sorry we couldn't hang out last night...we'll def. have to get dinner this week.

[tonofbricks]

like i said in response to christie's comment, i feel like when you come home, you want to see those people you grew up with and were best friends with in high school. i do recognize that you might not keep all those friends, though, because in college, you LIVE with the people you're closest with.

i don't know, anyway, yeah, dinner definitely!

[boundfornowhere]

I don't know how well I'll be at wording this but here it goes

[tonofbricks]

I do realize this. It's just so hard because I see the people in my school more than I'll see the girls at my barn, since I'm only there on the weekends. But I understand what you mean in that we have a common goal that we're chasing, and we get to chase it together.

This week, though, I've been putting into my head the things you guys have said, and it's not really bothering me as much anymore. I realize certain people have certain friends; I also realize that I have more friends than the people I'm chasing so hard. So thanks to LJ, I'm feeling a lot better. :)