Chicken-funk
I've been in a slight funk since last night unfortunately. I either didn't microwave my chicken long enough, or I just randomly caught a stomach-bug. Either way it wasn't very pleasant. My phone is also dead right now which kinda sucks, because I want to talk to Janelle. Depending on how my stomach carries on, I may or may not go to ninjutsu tonight, which I don't like, because I've been missing too many classes recently. I slept through my alarm sunday (so I couldn't train then), and now I'm feeling yucky (so I might not go tonight), and I didn't go last tuesday because I had to study for a Japanese quiz.
Speaking of which, I need to prepare for my skit Tuesday. If there's anything I don't particularly care for this semester, it's the regularity of things meant to "help" us learn. Having a quiz almost every day, new concepts and kanji every week, skits and lesson quizzes every few weeks. It's a little below the point where it reminds me of chemistry, where you learn something just to learn it for the moment and get through it, so that way you have more room to cram in all the information that arrives the next day. I don't like it, but I've at least been getting into better habits of how to engrain/retain the information.
I've also noticed there's a lot of things (relatively) going on in my life. Trying to plan out trips to Japan, quitting the band, practicing ninjutsu regularly, selling my car and buying my mom's, day to day home work, trying to get a job and money for Japan...I'm at least thankful though that I've never really had to deal with much more beyond my ability to handle.
I was never very good with rationalizing though, haha. But I'm working on that. Okay, that just struck a tangent (no pun intended) in my head. I'm sad, as well as sick, of seeing the habits that my brother David has gotten into. He's 22 years old, unemployed, and all he does is sit around and watch cartoons today. I've been trying to motivate him to take actions in his life, but he just beats himself back down so easily it's sad. He's my brother, I want to help him, but he won't help himself. It also makes me sad because I don't want to have to ever be faced with just abandoning him in the future. I mean, he's making the choice right now not to take school seriously, and to live the life he does (whether he acknowledges it or not, he's still making the choice) and I don't want to have to be responsible for him because of the future he chose to make for himself.
Anyways, think I need to start lifting weights a little again too because my biceps and forearms start to tire out sooner when I'm playing bass, and I hate getting cramps in the middle of a set. I also really like the ability of self-analysis that ninjutsu has opened me up to, helping me learn from myself. I've been doing it a lot lately with my bass playing lately and my technique: make sure my fingers come straight-down on the strings, in just the right location from the fret, with my other fingers in the right position, as well as other similar details for my plucking hand.
Learning from every moment, it's an interesting concept.
Maybe I should just apply to Sears...again. I always hear that place is hell, but I hear that about a lot of work places. There should be some 9-layers of hell thing that directly relates to work places or jobs. I'm sure retail could be layer four.
I've been playing a bit of chess with the guys lately, and I'm finding that I really never get tired of the game. It's also amazing just how long the game has been around as well. Still, I see a lot of people who look at the game and say, "It's too complex" or "It's boring" yet they drive a car every day, watch TV, and do other things that require ten times as much thought. I'd like to find a park some time to go to where I could play people in chess, I think it could be fun.
I don't know why, but I've always (not through active-choice however) favored my bishops more than other pieces.
Anyways, I have homework I must be returning to. Which, I have noticed becomes much easier when doing it with the mind-set that I'm actually trying to learn something, than to just do it and get it done with.
Life is learning ya?
Ciao.
EDIT: I also feel like saying that although I usually don't leave comments, I do read everybody's journals that are on my friend list. That is all. =p
Speaking of which, I need to prepare for my skit Tuesday. If there's anything I don't particularly care for this semester, it's the regularity of things meant to "help" us learn. Having a quiz almost every day, new concepts and kanji every week, skits and lesson quizzes every few weeks. It's a little below the point where it reminds me of chemistry, where you learn something just to learn it for the moment and get through it, so that way you have more room to cram in all the information that arrives the next day. I don't like it, but I've at least been getting into better habits of how to engrain/retain the information.
I've also noticed there's a lot of things (relatively) going on in my life. Trying to plan out trips to Japan, quitting the band, practicing ninjutsu regularly, selling my car and buying my mom's, day to day home work, trying to get a job and money for Japan...I'm at least thankful though that I've never really had to deal with much more beyond my ability to handle.
I was never very good with rationalizing though, haha. But I'm working on that. Okay, that just struck a tangent (no pun intended) in my head. I'm sad, as well as sick, of seeing the habits that my brother David has gotten into. He's 22 years old, unemployed, and all he does is sit around and watch cartoons today. I've been trying to motivate him to take actions in his life, but he just beats himself back down so easily it's sad. He's my brother, I want to help him, but he won't help himself. It also makes me sad because I don't want to have to ever be faced with just abandoning him in the future. I mean, he's making the choice right now not to take school seriously, and to live the life he does (whether he acknowledges it or not, he's still making the choice) and I don't want to have to be responsible for him because of the future he chose to make for himself.
Anyways, think I need to start lifting weights a little again too because my biceps and forearms start to tire out sooner when I'm playing bass, and I hate getting cramps in the middle of a set. I also really like the ability of self-analysis that ninjutsu has opened me up to, helping me learn from myself. I've been doing it a lot lately with my bass playing lately and my technique: make sure my fingers come straight-down on the strings, in just the right location from the fret, with my other fingers in the right position, as well as other similar details for my plucking hand.
Learning from every moment, it's an interesting concept.
Maybe I should just apply to Sears...again. I always hear that place is hell, but I hear that about a lot of work places. There should be some 9-layers of hell thing that directly relates to work places or jobs. I'm sure retail could be layer four.
I've been playing a bit of chess with the guys lately, and I'm finding that I really never get tired of the game. It's also amazing just how long the game has been around as well. Still, I see a lot of people who look at the game and say, "It's too complex" or "It's boring" yet they drive a car every day, watch TV, and do other things that require ten times as much thought. I'd like to find a park some time to go to where I could play people in chess, I think it could be fun.
I don't know why, but I've always (not through active-choice however) favored my bishops more than other pieces.
Anyways, I have homework I must be returning to. Which, I have noticed becomes much easier when doing it with the mind-set that I'm actually trying to learn something, than to just do it and get it done with.
Life is learning ya?
Ciao.
EDIT: I also feel like saying that although I usually don't leave comments, I do read everybody's journals that are on my friend list. That is all. =p