Writer's Block: Beyond Our Ken

[tonylover]

Keith Moon, John Entwistle and Brian Jones.
I really have no idea.
It's probably all in my head, but whatever.
Keith and John have drinks night on friday and saturday nights.
Brian sits around and doesn't say a lot at all, and just.... he's very sad.
Me and Keith have on numerous times, ruined my room.
We were bored.
John is of course, out mediator,

Comments

[juliafromoz]

You'd expect me to think you were crazy right? That is my normal reaction to people saying stuff like that. "You're crazy and stupid and blah blah blah" but I don't think that about you at all. I completely believe you. :/
...and I am sort of jealous. x.x

[tonylover]

oh my god, don't be jealous. don't be. it's not all fun, seriously, other people come in as well through them that i don't know and it's sjgfgh i don't like when people i don't know come through, but you can't stop them if they are connected to them. idk idk. i think you can, but i don't know how to.

seriously, i am crazy, it's fine to think i am. / think i'm crazy. so really, it's okay.

[juliafromoz]

Don't get me wrong, I think you're bleeding insane. lol I just don't think it in a negative way at all. I love you too much, lol.

But, it's like...I don't know. I think I could deal with the not fun and the people I didn't know if I could have Keith and John. I miss them lots and lots and I really would like to know what they would have said to me and shit like that.

I be a curious cat. *purr*

[tonylover]

Thank you. Good, thank you for being honest. Seriously. I'd rather people TELL ME I'm crazy than lie about it to make me feel good. So thank you.

The bad stuff is not good at all, I mean, I'm not trying to turn you off it or make it sound like I'm posessive or anything. Because that's not what I want to do. But I have had to go to a therapist for the bad stuff, THAT'S how bad the bad things are. Like sure, Keith and John are cool and blah blah, but there are consequences, like with anything good. Because the world is fucked.

i'm really sorry if that upsets you or anything. D: i'm just a fucked up little girl with fucked up shit.

[fake_neurotic]

THAT. IS FRICKING AWESOME.

I think, anyway. Srsly.

I don't think that makes you insane though. Like, I've had experiences that are sorta similar to that, but instead of rockstars its always my mom. Like, she always shows up in my dreams if I'm having a really shitty time or something. Or even if I'm not having a bad week or whatever- she's always just there. Like, I can pretty much feel her presence or whatever. And it varies from being barely noticeable to really freaky. I'm psychotically paranoid so I always think she's mad at me for something & there's obviously nothing I can do about it 'cause she's dead, but sometimes I can really tell she's mad at me because I can feel her presence a lot more. Like one time I practically expected her to appear or something and freak at me. That was actually really scary.

tl;dr: you're not crazy! Hahaha.

[tonylover]

It happens with people in my family that have died as well. So yeah, that part of it scares me more than the whole ~rockstar~ bit. because they're my family sdjkfhs i'm such a bitch. And sometimes it's like, little girls or something, like, that I don't even know, and their eyes are all glazed and DDD: THAT freaks me out. I'd rather just fuck around with Keith and destroy things. but jgdjklgh. i don't know how to stop the other ones coming through really.

but thank you for not thinking i'm bonkers. i'm always really insecure about telling people about that, because of how ~famous thy are and it sounds attention seeking and fake. i was just in a blah mood when i wrote that and didn't really care what people thought but thank you anyway. <3333

[balaurul]

Have you ever heard of soulbonds/headmates/multiplicity?

http://soulbonding.tripod.com/soulbonding_intro.htm

There are forums and groups and stuff. It is very much all in your head, and to think otherwise is probably unhealthy. But it's still out there, and many people see it as legit. If you want someone to talk to about the concept, I know some people.

[tonylover]

Oh thank you, I'll check that out.
To be completely honest, I've though it's all in my head for a while. It was the Same with John and George, I mean, I still LIKE the Beatles, but I'm not obsessed like I used to be, and as soon as I got into The Who and The Stones, WHAM! They're gone and it's Keith, John and Brian.

My father is a faggot though and won't get me tested for anything because he wants his only daughter to be perfect, and having a mental defect would obviously mean I'm not perfect.

But thank you, really. I'll have a read of that.

[balaurul]

It's not necessarily a mental defect. It's just a psychological thing that other people do too. -shrug-

Sure, let me know what you think. :)

[tonylover]

My ~therapist, who I hate and can go die. Said that some aspects of my childhood or some shit could have triggered something like that, because even when I was little and everything, I'd have imaginary friends, and I just never got out of the habit, and I spose now that I have INTERESTS I kind of just take them.

Will do, it sounds very interesting.