my goal is to type faster than my "inner editor." you know that part of me that makes me hit the backspace because I am thinking too much about what I'm writing down. So the other day I wore a black bra underneath a yellow sweater and it didn't even occur to me that it would show through, but it did, and all day long no one bothered to tell me. I ( Read more... )

so i cheated...

today I didnt eat my orange for breakfast so i didnt eat until 2pm

here is my list

the celery and carotts i cut up with ranch dressing, the orange i cut up, the two left over slices of pizza, and like 6 cookies...I think I'm going to throw them away.

all I can hope for... is that it will dissapear or that i suddenly loose like 100lbs. No seriously i'm in love and its complete shit! why oh why would i want to put myself through this?? and i mean i KNOW it will end with nothing of course. I'm going to do it...Im going to finnaly shed the poundage. I'm going to finnaly do what this journal was ( Read more... )

oh man I have it bad, he makes me smile giggle and I OH BOY no i get that feeling in the pit of my stomach. That I want to kiss him and laugh with him and put my hands in his hair. Friday night I went to his house with lacey melissa and chekeva and then saturday we all went to kaleys house. oh man I have it bad! TERRIBLE TERRIBLE NO OH MAN I well i ( Read more... )

im blaming me being blue on the 30 days of rain we have had. and plus Im in love again. we know how i love being in love.

I miss being me...

i think i lost myself somewhere along the ride and I'm feeling just a bit blue these days.

ugh i do need some cheering up. Claire got asked to homecoming today, which makes me a bad friend since im dissapointed because this means no more oregon which means no more escape from homecoming. whatever. plus i hate devin, and ashley too, and i have to listen to them since they sit right next to me. bitches, i hate them, its like go have sex ( Read more... )

wow lots of drama this week/weekend. So thursday in drama we waltzed! it was so funny, so i was devins partner for about 6.7 seconds before i was told to go be chris's partner. It was hillarious, i wish oh i wish we had pictures of it. So Ashley is definantly making the moves on Devin! The year long conquest begins! i can only hope she gets bored ( Read more... )

I should just face that im not getting asked to homecoming...right?my first fortune cookie said "man can maintain his dignity best in silence", but yesterday i got a new fortune that said "something special is coming your way." I can only hope! I gave Devin my number on friday, maybe he will use it maybe he wont. I dont relaly know why he would ( Read more... )

I had a REALLY good dream last night...I had a few really weird scary ones too. I was Stephens girlfriend, hem from laguna beach....lol. I dont know why but we were just making out in this like hospital room that we were locked in, it was nice, he kissed my neck. Then i kept saying things like...HEY I HAVE BOYFRIEND! definantly made me realize i ( Read more... )