Seeking approval from others encourages the wearing of a mask, doesn't it? To be honest with those that matter to you is hard, especially when your goal is to be loved. It's easier to be adored when you do what others want you to do. If your goal is honesty, you're going to find some bumpy roads ahead, Abby. It won't be smooth sailing, but in the process of truly understanding others, you know that it will be worth it. And it's not easy. I hide things from myself daily, and still will tomorrow, just to cope with the day...but when I can express myself to someone I love openly, that is the type of feeling that lets you know you matter. It's even better when someone else wants to express themselves with you
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strong willed yet dying insidetoopretty4boysApril 6 2004, 10:18:09 UTC
hm...interesting question actuallly. i think...well, i'm not sure what i think anymore. i think, sadly enough, i was a little desperate. desperate for the kind of attention and actual adoration I saw between nancy and tabi. it's odd, but you can apparently hug and cuddle a friend, yet that would be odd and make both parties uncomfortable. it's not just that either, it was just what they had...things in common, i guess. personally, i don't even like tabi. i thought i did, and when i started to find i didn't i tried...i tried so fucking hard to love her...to see what it is that nancy sees in her. so we would be like, a pack...3 girls, just hanging out. but, it's not going to be that way, and i can deal with that. it's a little hard i guess, to be the little sister with the "little sister syndrome" of looking up to the older sis
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honesty can be a bitchjasonktApril 8 2004, 00:10:49 UTC
hmmm...ok so much to say. I feel like I need a warning label or something, saying that if I hurt someone's feelings I didn't mean to...something like that...because it's situations like this in which what you write can be analyzed so much, and especially here so many people can read it. But, if I'm trying to be honest (which I am), I guess I don't really need one. WELL...just remember that opinions can change at the drop of a hat, and I don't have much information to work with
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"Written words depict a fuzzy view of how people are really feeling"
boy do they ever! you're intelligent though. Seeking attention...I don't want anyone to pay attention to me, exactly, just to my thoughts I guess. Hopefully you two can work this out. I'm gonna post more later, though, need to relax first.
I know you hurt, though, if you didn't I wouldn't be taking the time to give a shit.
Oh, and I said you can be bratty, which isn't the same as being a brat, and it's not a quality I pretend to be without. I can be plenty unpleasant myself, ask Nancy sometime.
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boy do they ever! you're intelligent though. Seeking attention...I don't want anyone to pay attention to me, exactly, just to my thoughts I guess. Hopefully you two can work this out. I'm gonna post more later, though, need to relax first.
I know you hurt, though, if you didn't I wouldn't be taking the time to give a shit.
Oh, and I said you can be bratty, which isn't the same as being a brat, and it's not a quality I pretend to be without. I can be plenty unpleasant myself, ask Nancy sometime.
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