Life is funny. You never really know what the next day holds in store for you. You could make a new friend, a new relationship. You could fall in love or even die. I look forward to every new day because to me every new day holds a new adventure. And God knows I love a good adventure. Currently I am alive and awake. As for my mood I would say I'm ( Read more... )

I'm in California right now. There are only two days left of my visit and I am feeling very numb. SO much has happened. So many things from the past. It's overwhelming. I am overwhelmed. Seeing mike and PJ and Cale. Smoking pot, drinking, doing drugs, all of it. I keep thinking about TJ. What am I going to do when I see him again? How will I feel? ( Read more... )

No, I am not moving to Utah. I decided that living with my mother would not be the best thing where my sanity is concerned. It's not her fault, I just can't live with my mom. I love her to pieces, don't get me wrong, but I can't stand her. She told my grandma, that my sister told her that she (jade) talked to mike the other day at the movie theater ( Read more... )

I am moving back to Utah, I guess. It is what my mother, grandmother and I have agreed on. I want to go back to school. The only school I could think of going to are Independence in California, or ALLC (now called East Shore) in Utah. Seeing as how my father is a crazy bastard who wants to have me locked up the moment I step foot on Californian ( Read more... )

read the ENTIRE writing and then go back and read ONLY what is written in capital letters. it's pretty trippy ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of the pain. i'm tired of hurting. it's been so long since i was happy. years. it's like, no matter where i go, the pain is always right behind me. i can never be free. it's slowly eating away at me and there's nothing i can do to stop it. i have lost control. i've lost the battle. i have been defeated and taken prisoner where i will ( Read more... )

Through dangers untold, and hardships unnumbered, I have fought my way to the castle beyond the Goblin City, to take back the child that you have stole. For my will is as strong as yours, and my kingdom as great. You have no power over me ( Read more... )

It's been a long and difficult summer for me. Last week I finally had enough of life and the way the people in my life treated me. I decided to drink a bottle of vodka and take a bottle of pills. To make a long story short, I threw up in front of the movie theatre, passed out in the parking lot, and woke up in the emergency room. They put me in the ( Read more... )

FULL NAME: Amber Carol Lack ( Read more... )