Well I went to my check up on thursday. It was cool cuz I got to hear the heartbeat! It was a long day though. The waiting room was packed ( Read more... )

...maybe it is because there is a baby growing inside of me?
Who knows. I am now 16 weeks pregnant. It really has not hit me that I am going to be a mom yet. It has not hit Carl that he will be a dad either.

I burned my finger this morning. It hurts. Dont play with fire... umm...yeah right.

Ahhhhhhhhh

I go to sleep now...

Carl still really wants a boy. If it is a boy then his name will be Carl James Ray. I want a girl. I am having a really hard time picking out girl names. I want something unique but not a hooker name. If anyone has any suggestions... I am very open to them ( Read more... )

I know my entires are far and inbetween but not many people read this anyway. (except for the people that matter ( Read more... )

I have a baby in my tummy...

Lauren will teach it to be a ninja...

it will be good.

My new years resolution is to make plans for next new years eve, like 2 weeks in advance. Waiting til the last second to make plans is not only stressful but annoying for everyone involved. Though this year finally ended up not being so bad.

A hotel is the solution for everything!

A hotel and lots of liqour!

mmmmmmmm...... Liqour....

I dont wanna go...
Dont make me...
But why...?

Everyone wants to go to Disney World, right?
Why dont I?

Have I lost that little child inside?
Am I cold hearted, like my mom says?
"Can I not stand to be with my family, that bad?" like mom says?

I shouldnt listen to my mom.
Or maybe I shouldnt listen to me?

Now I sit in scilence.

I hate Christmas...

I hate shopping...

No one ever knows what they want...

I never know what I want...

Stupid Christmas

And I always get sick around christmas.

Stupid winter

I hate reality. I stress out and worry way too much.
But I would not be able to have reality any other way.
I live for the stress that will one day kill me.

I want to escape reality . . .
But I cant understand what that actually means.

I feel better now ( Read more... )