Dropping meme, now with more fail!
Ahaha so, drop meme.
I don’t have an order to go in because lol one character but, for the most part my views on him waver from day to day.
To be honest I’ve never really felt... spot-on with him, even when I first did the mess of cannon reviewing for him and analyzing how I thought his mind processed things. A lot of his character interaction is me analyzing the possible underlying reasons for his behavior and then applying it to the situation on hand, usually taking aspects of things that I’ve either encountered or had to deal with as a partial basis for the actions as well. Canon gives me some things to work with, but I have to headcanon a lot.
I can’t even begin to tell you how much this scares me. I worried just about every time I watched the cutscenes or roots and thankfully, I’ve only been jossed in the manga once, but frankly the way the mediums present him gives me a number of different possible thought processes to go by. The fact that I tend to use personal references to help sometimes doesn’t sit well with me at all.
There’s some things even I won’t headcanon at all, like his time at Kestrel. There’s a few minor things I feel I could almost not feel horrible about headcanoning, but the vast majority about his backstory there I leave as a blank spot because it’s not even that I have little to work with, I have NOTHING to work with. Also the non-relationship portion of the last seven years and his early childhood are a difficult spots. Those areas are where there was a lot of character development, and it leaves me flailing a good chunk of the time.
To say my views on his possible mindset change rather heavily even though I essay at my friends about them, just a few for example: Kuhn’s a good guy, Kuhn’s not that great, Kuhn’s not a dark character but he’s had one or two moments that if someone was analyzing would give them a moment’s pause, Kuhn’s not violent, Kuhn has a bit of a temper sometimes, Kuhn will see the light of reason and grudgingly go along with something that’s not all that good if it serves the better good, Kuhn can be short-sighted and not agree to a goal that helps a larger amount of people if it could harm a few, Kuhn could be a decent leader, Kuhn isn’t a good leader that often, Kuhn can read people pretty well, Kuhn just doesn’t get some people and projects on them to understand...
You see my point. I really hate to say it, but a variation most of those in the previous run-on sentence have been views I once held at some point or the other. The problem is that Kuhn can be a hypocrite, but I don’t have a solid grip on which points are ones that he’d be unaware of his hypocrisy and ones that he’d see it and not go there.
But what are my chances of dropping? About 50% on any given day, sometimes I feel like I’m not sucking so much and on other days I feel like if I threaded with people, I’d be inflicting horrible RP on them. On the other hand, I’m afraid of dropping, not just because I love him to death, but also because I’m a coward and worried that it was a fluke that I got in at all.
As it stands there are things I need to be doing that I haven’t. He needs to get out more, and he needs to start flirting again. I feel comfortable with the dds/hack cast and that’s the main reason I often thread with them, but I really do need to have him get back to being the special little social butterfly he can be.
...Ah, in short, not dropping him at the moment, I think?
I don’t have an order to go in because lol one character but, for the most part my views on him waver from day to day.
To be honest I’ve never really felt... spot-on with him, even when I first did the mess of cannon reviewing for him and analyzing how I thought his mind processed things. A lot of his character interaction is me analyzing the possible underlying reasons for his behavior and then applying it to the situation on hand, usually taking aspects of things that I’ve either encountered or had to deal with as a partial basis for the actions as well. Canon gives me some things to work with, but I have to headcanon a lot.
I can’t even begin to tell you how much this scares me. I worried just about every time I watched the cutscenes or roots and thankfully, I’ve only been jossed in the manga once, but frankly the way the mediums present him gives me a number of different possible thought processes to go by. The fact that I tend to use personal references to help sometimes doesn’t sit well with me at all.
There’s some things even I won’t headcanon at all, like his time at Kestrel. There’s a few minor things I feel I could almost not feel horrible about headcanoning, but the vast majority about his backstory there I leave as a blank spot because it’s not even that I have little to work with, I have NOTHING to work with. Also the non-relationship portion of the last seven years and his early childhood are a difficult spots. Those areas are where there was a lot of character development, and it leaves me flailing a good chunk of the time.
To say my views on his possible mindset change rather heavily even though I essay at my friends about them, just a few for example: Kuhn’s a good guy, Kuhn’s not that great, Kuhn’s not a dark character but he’s had one or two moments that if someone was analyzing would give them a moment’s pause, Kuhn’s not violent, Kuhn has a bit of a temper sometimes, Kuhn will see the light of reason and grudgingly go along with something that’s not all that good if it serves the better good, Kuhn can be short-sighted and not agree to a goal that helps a larger amount of people if it could harm a few, Kuhn could be a decent leader, Kuhn isn’t a good leader that often, Kuhn can read people pretty well, Kuhn just doesn’t get some people and projects on them to understand...
You see my point. I really hate to say it, but a variation most of those in the previous run-on sentence have been views I once held at some point or the other. The problem is that Kuhn can be a hypocrite, but I don’t have a solid grip on which points are ones that he’d be unaware of his hypocrisy and ones that he’d see it and not go there.
But what are my chances of dropping? About 50% on any given day, sometimes I feel like I’m not sucking so much and on other days I feel like if I threaded with people, I’d be inflicting horrible RP on them. On the other hand, I’m afraid of dropping, not just because I love him to death, but also because I’m a coward and worried that it was a fluke that I got in at all.
As it stands there are things I need to be doing that I haven’t. He needs to get out more, and he needs to start flirting again. I feel comfortable with the dds/hack cast and that’s the main reason I often thread with them, but I really do need to have him get back to being the special little social butterfly he can be.
...Ah, in short, not dropping him at the moment, I think?