My mind is clouded my vision blurred ( Read more... )

Im not entirely sure of the point of tonights blog, but I felt like writing for awhile ( Read more... )

When you're feeling really down and like crap at night before you go to bed...Aren't you supposed to wake up feeling better about life? Well I proceeded to have a lot of really strange dreams and then woke up in about the same state that I went to bed in. I guess that comes from the fact that I'm still stuck in the same situation :p Who knew. I ( Read more... )

Oooooooookay...SO! I don't even know where to begin...This past week has been very interesting. Lets just start back from where I left off last week...because I just feel like reflecting. So I think that leaves us at monday...Well I went to my dr. apt, and that was kinda rough...I have to get some medicine to take care of like 3 spots that pretty ( Read more... )

As I lay here, unable to sleep, decided maybe to release some thoughts, see if it'd help me sleep. Tomorrow morning at 8:45 I have my doctors apt. I'm nervous for a few reasons...One, I get my blood work results, and I'm curious to what they found but also a little nervous, two I'm getting my vagina poked at and probed and swabbed and stared at by ( Read more... )

On the plus side of being up late last night, I got to sleep in today ( Read more... )

I wish I didnt have so many thoughts....so many feelings and emotions....sometimes they're magical...and sometimes it's like having a disease that slowly eats away at you. I wish there was a switch to turn things off when I need to..just to not be reminded by every little thing for once...that is what I wish...and why im still up at 3:36am....I'd ( Read more... )

It's a pretty easy going monday morning and I thought it was a good opportunity to get my livejournal on. I need to try to start writing in here when I'm not in a bad mood lol Try to put in some happier posts. Oh man, when I look back at some of my really old posts in my Other livejournal, its crazy how happy and carefree I could be! Some days were ( Read more... )

Okay, so last night I got more sleep then I have in a LONG time...ALMOST 12 hours..sacrifice of this...I slept through church...but sleep was needed. But this morning, one thing seems to be blowing me away...my dreams...holy shit...sex everywhere...so on that note ( Read more... )

Tis Sunday evening, another one spent at the laundry mat. I actually haven't been here in awhile, I've been working so much that mom and mike have gone without me the past couple times. I don't mind doing laundry really, its one of the more nonstressful events of the week. I can even take this time to write in here while I wait for it to dry. I ( Read more... )