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Okay, so due to me not putting in a teeny tiny little quotation mark in the html, my ENTIRE rant from last Thursday was cut off....I'm copying it and pasting it behind this nice little cut right here.
On another note, I really hate money. I hate how it must consume us until we can't live without it. I've said many times before to many people, I don't love money, I'm just dependent on it. The reason for my money-hating at this point and time, I don't have the money for rent. I really don't. I don't like not having the money to pay rent, 'cause that means that I have to beg and plead for other people to give me money. So far, the only people I have begged for large sums of money from are my parents. This is going to change as soon as I stop typing and call my roommate. 'Cause, like I said, I don't have the money for rent. Nor do I have the money for my car payment that's due in 11 days, or any bills after that. Why am I so broke do you ask? Oh yeah, I don't have a job. I stopped checking lj just before I quit Affina, so it never got posted. Affina was affecting me. I turned into someone I didn't want to be. I was stressed out to the point that my sleep wasn't sleep. I started dreaming about it, then waking up several times a night because something was wrong. Even when I didn't dream, the bags under my eyes got worse, not better. 7-8 hours of sleep a night, and two weeks worth of undereye bags start to let you know something's wrong. So that's why I quit. And now I can't find another job. I need something that pays more than 8.50/hour so that I can try and finally get out of this hole of debt I'm in, but still no luck. Especially since I a) refuse to work food, and b) refuse to do strictly customer service jobs ever again. Cashiering, fine, hotel front desk, if it pays well enough. No customer service desk, and especially no sitting answering complaints on the phone all day. If I can get a simple data entry job, or secretary job, or something of that nature, I'd be as happy as a clam at the bottom of the tide pool at high tide. I loved my Doubletree job. Sitting, organizing things, mailing letters, getting people to the sales manager they needed to go to, that's something I could do until the day I die. But I lost that job because I so very desparately wanted to be here. Now I'm not so sure that I made the right choice. But it's been made, and I have to live with it. I just hope I can find something like it.
Okay, just so Travis can't yell at me for feeling hopeless, I did manage to get a job at Flores Music as a Voice, Violin, and Viola teacher. Students pay $15 for a 1/2 hour, I get a 2/3 cut. No taxes to worry about, unless I make too much, but I'll have to keep a record of it so that the government doesn't try to kill me and steal it all come April. The only problem with this job right now is I don't have students. No students=no money. Teh suXX0r. Heather knows my pain, especially when I get into flu/cold/whatever season and the students decide that they don't want to show up. No show=no money. More suXX0rz. ::sigh:: Travis says I'll make it. I probably will, but I feel like I'm at the end of my rope right now.
[ETA]Update, I'm down to my last $20, and can't find job openings in any of the spots Kindyr and I thought about. Maybe I should commute to Springfield.... ::opens up a whole new can of worms::
Okay, so that's a lie, but the only jobs I see available that aren't part time are a single job at Caterpillar and a few at Pair-A-Dice. I want to go to Pair-A-Dice in person, though, because I've got the experience for about 5 of their open jobs.
On another note, I really hate money. I hate how it must consume us until we can't live without it. I've said many times before to many people, I don't love money, I'm just dependent on it. The reason for my money-hating at this point and time, I don't have the money for rent. I really don't. I don't like not having the money to pay rent, 'cause that means that I have to beg and plead for other people to give me money. So far, the only people I have begged for large sums of money from are my parents. This is going to change as soon as I stop typing and call my roommate. 'Cause, like I said, I don't have the money for rent. Nor do I have the money for my car payment that's due in 11 days, or any bills after that. Why am I so broke do you ask? Oh yeah, I don't have a job. I stopped checking lj just before I quit Affina, so it never got posted. Affina was affecting me. I turned into someone I didn't want to be. I was stressed out to the point that my sleep wasn't sleep. I started dreaming about it, then waking up several times a night because something was wrong. Even when I didn't dream, the bags under my eyes got worse, not better. 7-8 hours of sleep a night, and two weeks worth of undereye bags start to let you know something's wrong. So that's why I quit. And now I can't find another job. I need something that pays more than 8.50/hour so that I can try and finally get out of this hole of debt I'm in, but still no luck. Especially since I a) refuse to work food, and b) refuse to do strictly customer service jobs ever again. Cashiering, fine, hotel front desk, if it pays well enough. No customer service desk, and especially no sitting answering complaints on the phone all day. If I can get a simple data entry job, or secretary job, or something of that nature, I'd be as happy as a clam at the bottom of the tide pool at high tide. I loved my Doubletree job. Sitting, organizing things, mailing letters, getting people to the sales manager they needed to go to, that's something I could do until the day I die. But I lost that job because I so very desparately wanted to be here. Now I'm not so sure that I made the right choice. But it's been made, and I have to live with it. I just hope I can find something like it.
Okay, just so Travis can't yell at me for feeling hopeless, I did manage to get a job at Flores Music as a Voice, Violin, and Viola teacher. Students pay $15 for a 1/2 hour, I get a 2/3 cut. No taxes to worry about, unless I make too much, but I'll have to keep a record of it so that the government doesn't try to kill me and steal it all come April. The only problem with this job right now is I don't have students. No students=no money. Teh suXX0r. Heather knows my pain, especially when I get into flu/cold/whatever season and the students decide that they don't want to show up. No show=no money. More suXX0rz. ::sigh:: Travis says I'll make it. I probably will, but I feel like I'm at the end of my rope right now.
[ETA]Update, I'm down to my last $20, and can't find job openings in any of the spots Kindyr and I thought about. Maybe I should commute to Springfield.... ::opens up a whole new can of worms::
Okay, so that's a lie, but the only jobs I see available that aren't part time are a single job at Caterpillar and a few at Pair-A-Dice. I want to go to Pair-A-Dice in person, though, because I've got the experience for about 5 of their open jobs.