This month has been one of the roughest I have dealt with for a long time to a point I need to post on this LJ again. Funny I found an old post I was working on that I never posted mentioning this dark feeling nearly a year ago. In any case it is my birthday soon and I need to except and not rely on getting anything this year that will help me pay ( Read more... )

It been so long since I have used this journal but it the only place I dump all my negative down bullshit and know full well not many read it ( Read more... )

I think I have reach the point in my life where I need to press down on the gas and head straight over the cliff. I have held back so much in doing what I wanted to do and become for so long having this constant fear that I will fail and rely on a backup plan. Well I'm stable enough to do something on my own without aid from anyone. I need to just ( Read more... )

Yesterday I saw Avatar on Imax 3D. That movie was made for it and was amazing, but this is not why I'm writing this down. During the movie an concept came to me that was inspired by watching the movie as well as reading the Ender's series. The concept arose when my mind asked to itself "what evolutionary path is human's heading for if all we do is ( Read more... )

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I like that quote. It is good. A complex way of thinking in such three worded sentence. Time is what it means. A friend debated with me that time is a manifestation of man. True the concept of marking the time is something man had created, but one can not ignore that we still grow old, Suns still dye, and all of space is in motion. That is what ( Read more... )

This subject is over how humans are interacting less and less with one another and more on technology. this subject emerged from my mind when I saw a commercial that is teaching babies to read. The way it is done is so simple their parents could do it themselves with no need to buy the product but why then buy it. Simple answer, they don't have or ( Read more... )

I have almost forgotten I have a online journal. Things have been so busy and fast past I haven't had time to ponder. There were moments I realize now that I should have done so but the existence of this journal then had vanished ( Read more... )

In the words of Fallout, "War. War never changes" That phrase is stuck in my head so i felt it would be nice to rant about it. War will always be. Can't have peace without war and can have war without peace. That is the very idea of them war and peace. Just like the good and evil. Can't have on without the other. How can one know that is good or ( Read more... )

I'm working on a paper for school about my definition of an American and I was going through the internet for research to prove the people are racist in some form or another. I remember a line from Carlos Mencia during one of this early specials that I watched while in the navy that was great to prove this. While looking for the info of what the ( Read more... )