now that i hav wat i wanted.. i realize this isnt wat i wanted at A L L...

[torn_apart_4eva]

wow this is like my fourth entry today. well thats cuz i feel like i hav alot to write but wne i get here its like.. blah! well im torn now. i wana b with him.. but i dont. its weird. like i think about him and then im like y should i b.. he told me to die.. its so hard. i duno wat to do. sometimes i just feel like crying. cuz thers nothign better

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try not to worry

[anonymous]

not only r u guna worry more than u ever did, but ull cry more than u ever did.

Re: try not to worry

[torn_apart_4eva]

im guna try not to worry but its guna b so hard. im gona b soo depressed for a while now. its guna take a long time to get used to. especailly knowing that next year im guna b seeing him alot. and its even worse wondering where he is and if he actually cared..

[anonymous]

dont worry about him. itll take awhile to get over him. but u will eventually

[torn_apart_4eva]

i dont think ill ever get used to getting over him, but im guna try. if i ever do get used to it.. its guna b a long time. he really meant something but strangely i hav no idea why.

[torn_apart_4eva]

but i will definately try cuz i need to learn to forget about him.

[anonymous]

ur too good for him anyway. dont stress over it.

[torn_apart_4eva]

i dont wana stress over it,. really i dont.. but it seems like i already am.

[anonymous]

you deserve someone better. besides he was younger right? well u should go for older men who kno how to treat someone like you.

[torn_apart_4eva]

yeah he was younger and i usually talk to older guys.. never younger.. theis was the first and the last. never again.

i love u baby.

[anonymous]

aww baby dont cry. you have me now. ull b ok. u kno ull b ok. u never shoulda left me in the beginning. ill always love you babygirl.

Re: i love u baby.

[torn_apart_4eva]

i kno i never should left u.. sorry. ill always love u 2 baby