Hmmmm
I sit here and watch the light reflect off the walls,
A strip of white at the end of a dark hall,
Holding the blade over mortal flesh,
Longing for its steel caress.
Sitting here i ponder,
The movie reel that is my life,
Plays over and over in slow motion,
Replaying all the mistakes,
Repeating all the pain,
And the happy parts are missing,
So much static on the screen,
Sitting here i wonder,
Will it hurt and will i mind?
How deep is deep enough,
How long is long enough?
God i don't want to screw this up,
The last chapter in a pointless book,
The last sentance of wasted breath.
A flash of conversation,
I didn't let it show,
But i remember the words you spoke like they were yesterday,
I tell you i love you and you shy away,
i try to touch you but you just shake me off,
Told you but you just said i know,
Do you know? I don't think so.
Know how much it hurts to tell someone,
And not to hear it back?
Well it hurts like hell,
It isn't anything to this knife,
So with your face filling up my mind,
I'll rip it through my skin,
Watch the crimson fountain spurt,
Bloodstains on your soul,
Whisper words of pain,
Cry not because of the pain but because of you,
Cry for you and wonder why you didn't care,
Hope you never let this go,
Hope that you will know,
You did it.
You might as well have held the knife,
It's bloodstained steel rests on the note,
To everybody else i apologise,
To you, i simply cry.
There is nothing to express that words could ever say,
Because i miss you more than i did yesterday,
I know there'll be no light for me,
The darkened tunnel's all i'll see,
I should have never let you in,
Your soul is full of sin,
It's not my story,
Tell me another on baby,
Because it's your story,
Your digging up the corpses again,
Digging for the buried dreams that you destroyed.
Digging for the blood that's left my body,
Digging hoping the sweat will wash off the blood,
That will stain your hands forever,
The last words that i wrote to you,
You did it.