Back again and nothing changed.
Slipping back into the monotony,
From another pointless memory,
More useless writing in a book,
That isn't even worth a look.
Well i feel sickened,
You just don't care anymore,
And i can feel this happening,
But you don't care,
Surrounded by people,
And i can't share,
The hurt in fear that i'll hurt you.
Can't talk anymore,
In case i choke,
Can't touch anymore,
In case i lose you,
Can't look anymore,
Cos i don't want to see you.
And god isn't it obvious,
That you don't want to see me.
I'm lost at sea,
In a hurricane of hurt,
And a lashing storm of tears,
And you were always my ship,
My lifeline and my love,
For you i would have survived,
But now your gone.
And i can't muster the will to fight,
To drag another breath,
I say that everythings alright,
Well i'm not ok,
I promise you that i'm not ok,
And i never will be,
I will never be the same,
And i will never be ok.
I don't remember how that feels,
To not have something bugging me,
To not have someone hating me,
To not have you people loathing me.
Have you slowly distancing yourselves from me,
Now it's my turn though.
I will not cry because i won't anymore,
I find i can't anymore,
I'm willing to die for a minutes rest,
I'm willing to go for some peace,
For an hour i can spend,
That isn't thinking of you.