So -this is what it feels like to take another human life. And people do this without emotion, without remorse, without sadness or second thoughts? How is that possible? The idea frightens me, that someone would become innured to the enormity of such an act. It seems monstrous ( Read more... )

I heard this song today...the lyrics stuck in my mind...they spoke to me ( Read more... )

Here it is, the mother of all prophecies apparently. I only know what bits and pieces of it mean. Hopefully I'll get help with the rest ( Read more... )

I'm not even certain where to begin with this. How do you take the single most important person in your life and sum up what he means to you in a page or two in a journal? I suppose you can't. I also suppose that even with all my well-developed skills in writing lyrics and expressing my feelings through them, there's no way I can accurately ( Read more... )

Samuel Blessing - my living, breathing proof that God exists. For the longest time my only interest in God consisted of trying to figure out why a supposedly loving, benevolent creator would allow such painful, humiliating things to happen to his creations. It didn't seem right; God didn't seem right. He seemed like an absentee parent frankly ( Read more... )

I always wanted a family. Growing up there was mom and all the very kind and protective people at the Renaissance Faire’s, but I never thought of them as a family. They were good people no doubt, but it wasn’t the same as having a home and parents and some brothers and sisters. I’d felt like an outsider, a freak for most of my life and awakening ( Read more... )

Well, now that I’ve deified my mother, let’s move on to a somewhat more ambiguous topic, my father. Or as his close personal friends know him ( Read more... )

I want to write about the important people in my life. It may take awhile; I have a lot of friends and family. Mom gets first billing though. Kerica Reese. People say I'm beautiful - no, my mom is beautiful. In every way possible, she's just gorgeous ( Read more... )

Growing up, my mother taught me that love was the most powerful of emotions. The old cliche about love conquering all - she really believed that and she taught me to believe it too. I always did, but I'm starting to have doubts ( Read more... )

There's been too much talk about endings lately. It's depressing and I'd rather not dwell on it. So I decided I'd write about a beginning. I've had a lot of beginnings. Becoming a mage was a beginning. Meeting Lijah was a huge beginning. Forming a chantry was a beginning...and all of those things were very special and they all taught me ( Read more... )