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[totalmindfuck]

i think i need to cut back on the shibbying...
i am unhealthy and i am wanting pills

pills are bad...
the marijuana isn't so bad
but the booze is

i am becoming a slob
and just recently fell in love with pills again
they make the pain go away...
but only for a short time

alcohol reminds me of why i am down on myself
so i started taking pills

i miss when i just

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[locatei]

Yeah pills and alcohol and anything that helps you to somewhat escape reality can be hard to resist sometimes, especially when you are having crappy days lately... I used to smoke pot 24/7! It was amazing that i even managed to step outside of the house... but i actually stopped after 7 years... I have no idea how i did it. Ha. I do it every once a blue moon but it actually makes me really paranoid and over-whelmed these days so i tend to stay away from it.

If you enjoy doing music... really truly enjoy it, then i say you should keep doing what you are.

Hi... I noticed you added me... I think i met you briefly.. In the car? Heh. I remember Ethan had to play at your house party.. I was unaware that it was a house party.. a big one. I can't handle big parties without a bunch of my friends around to protect me. I have social anxiety so i didn't want to attend. Sorry if i seemed a bit strange or something... It's probably because I am. Ha. I was a bit embarassed when i met you while hiding in the car. Not my best moment.

[totalmindfuck]

don't worry about the first encounter... i understand what it is like to have social anxiety... all of the friends i have are the ones that i met over and over again while drunk... i am guessing that it is my moment to shine so to speak...

but i saw one of your comments on ghostmeat's entries and saw that you were from baytown so i added you... and now i realize i had met you with ethan before...

but don't worry about feeling weird... everybody is weird... they just don't know it yet

the ones who do realize it are the brilliant ones

good to have you on my side