Tear me open but beware there's things inside without a care
It's been nearly a year since this started, Moving here with my sister happened a little more then a year and two months ago. Neither of us knew everyone was here. She had wanted a new start away from everyone away from our parents. It was my fault all this happened seeing all my friends here made me happy.I didn't even notice how alienated she was. I really must be a terrible brother. Looking back I see most of my mistakes of what I can remember of it anyway.The thing I cant remember is how I ended up like this.
How on earth did I end up convincing myself I loved this man? Really. He's not changed much since school, he's still moody broading and hates the world that I love so much. He still obsesses over Sawada, which mind you Kyoko told me I must be understanding about. Becuase to him Sawada is what Boxing is to me. But really when did I force this on him? Cause surely that's what I did. Kyoko used to tell me how I forced the things I want on people to much. That has to be what I've done. Though I want him happy I only seem to see hm falling deeper and deeper into this hatred of everything, and find myself out here on the couch more then anywhere.
I would try and bring it up to him but I am extremely confused on how to do so without making thing's worse. the more I take myself out of the house and away from them the more angry he gets. Though I know he can't stand to be around me for long periods of time. It's like dealing with Hibari...but my methods for Hibari won't work here...
Hayato Gokudera is no Hibari Kyouya. Dino would know what to do but I burned that bridge at christmas. Thanks Orihime. Speaking of I gotta call Lambo and make sure everything's set for me to come visit him. I think it would be a good idea just to leave for a week or two and see if that helps Sawada and Hayato.
If it doesn't I'll have to figure up something else. Though for now I'll just leave him alone and hang out with Blair or Yamamoto again tonight, or just go to the gym until I'm to tired to stay awake when I get home. I'll figure something out.