gosh my life is just at a freakin standstill right now. i hate that....ive been so depressed this week. and ive been just blah and mean and blocking out to everyone around me and they ask me wahts wrong with me and i have no answers... cause i dont know. i mean i do, but not exactly. i just cant stand not knowing, waiting for something to happen, ( Read more... )

yeah so disregard anything said in that last entry... i was a little drunk and way tired... so yeah just retarded.... haha..anyways.....

ahhh...im feeling good... buzzing but not drunk the perfect feel.... usually i get sick when i drink. but i just had liek 2 beers tonight, 2 shots... its all gravy ( Read more... )

good god its been a freakin long time since i updated this shiiiiit....... so i dont even know where to start with an update......just got back from being out of state for a good month and a half about..... was in daytona, then new york, then la..... i loved loved loved la........ it was the ticket.... i want to be there now...... ive been so out ( Read more... )

so today was good.......... im telling you as long as im dancing everything in my world is perfect... well not perfect but its good... heh....im freakin obsessed, but i dont even give a shit....... its not even what i do, its who i am...i would so much rather be dancing then doing anything else in teh whole entire world, i kid you not.. yea i may ( Read more... )

GODDDDDDDD!!! its freakin 4 something in the morning and i just tried to go to sleep, but it didnt work yet... so ill write and then i should pass out.... got a lot of nothing on my mind right now... hmmmmmm... i really should be in bed though considering i have to babysit all day tomorrow and then right after im done go to the studio and teach a ( Read more... )

ok im back... same night though. ha.. im in a deep thinking mood right now, so had to write more ( Read more... )

"You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see...but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel ( Read more... )

ahhhhh im nice and burnt... not too burnt but just burnt enough where i have a nice color.. .hahaha. ive been at the beach or pool for like the past 4 or 5 days non stop... its hottttttt... it makes me so tired though... being in the sun all day wears you out... oh well.... plus ive been dancing hard a lot lately... i didnt dance today though, and ( Read more... )

i choreographed the hottest dance tonight in "song for a winters night" class...so freakin hot... and they all killed it and worked the hell out of it also... i videotaped it and wowwwwwwwwwww is all i can say. its about time i got my shit back... ha the whole inspiration/choreography thing that ive been scared that i had lost.... i choreographed a ( Read more... )