Well, I didn't get to hike any mountains. But that doesn't mean I can't start some weekend. I start with Fidelity on Monday, and I'll have every weekend off, so that means I'll have time at some point ( Read more... )

I hate being sick. I especially hate it because 2 days ago I told Sarah I never get sick. ::sigh:: figures.

Nothing going on. In and out of sleep all day. Tired, achey, just plain not feeling good.

I want to hike Kearsarge this week before I start working next week.

Goin back to sleep.

For the last 3 days, everytime I try to fall asleep, I have horrific nightmares. Sometimes they're about my friends and family, sometimes they're about personal loss and death... but mostly, it's the nightmares that have come back from my childhood. Just that eerie, scary, ominous stuff I wrote about before. I can't sleep unless the sun is up, even ( Read more... )

I cried tonight ( Read more... )

Honestly, I can't tell you what to do or not to do, but the thought of you at some club with guys all around you, hitting on you, dancing on you, their hands (among other things) on you... it honestly kills me. I hate it.

I can't control you... never will. But I still care about you, and this is hard. Hard as hell.

I can't be around you... it reminds me of why I fell for you in the first place...

And I can't be away from you because I hate being alone.

Why does this have to be so hard?

I hate being surrounded by people

..and feeling completely alone

So... the end has come and gone. Not easy, not relieving... just... empty. And sad. I don't have any regrets. Every dollar well spent, every second worth it. Everything is a learning experience, and this is no exception ( Read more... )

When the heat and bordom hits.... I steal things from others ( Read more... )

Stole this from Maria...