"i'm outta here."
as i state the obvious hoping you'll catch on... you do. work has become my life, i spend more hours of the day there than i do at home. and while at home all i can do is sleep. but you do too. we both love that hustle and bustle, we both love having money in our pockets, and we both love the luck that came with finding eachothers ( Read more... )

i wonder if anyone else knows what its like to not have a home. i don't mean literally, i just mean in the sense of a place you are comforted by. a place that is your safety blanket, the one place full of people who care about you unconditonally and always will. not only do i not have a home, i don't have a family. my family isn't mine. i don't ( Read more... )

i'm at a crossroads. one way will lead my life to a certain destiny, and the other another. which way i want to go, i'm not quite sure. which way will make me grow, i still don't know. and which way i will end up walking down is all i need to understand.

a: i feel as if life has thrown me so many curve balls that i could be the next stand in for barry bonds.  i know that many of my falls have been because of my own loss of balance in my life but i always want to dance on my tip toes.  when i look back on the mishaps and happy times in my life i realise that the bad still doesn't out wiegh the great ( Read more... )

and i blame the gods for wanting you. as i sit here by myself with you only a few more than 10 yards away from you i listen to the song. the song. its not even a song. its not even us. there is no us. why, why the one time i come back and tell you that i will stay, you say leave. what is so wonderful about her, what do i not have? i may not be as ( Read more... )

okay so once again, this happens to me. i donno why i let it happen to me really, i guess i kind of like being the entree on the side.

And I respect ya gangsta
Treat you like a princess
And put some on your neck to thank ya
Shes my pinch hitta
When the startin lineup aint playin right
I come off the bench wit her
It might sound like im gassin ya
But it ( Read more... )

not the other girl... that girl

i cant quite tell what you think about it, because on top of everything.. i'm leaving. why don't we ever remember this when the summers season comes back and i leave you here, stuck in this small town with a highway shooting straight through the town. its like childhood when im with you and it makes me feel so young, yet so old. this is us now, ( Read more... )

the more i look back on scribble pages and typed thoughts the more i realise that you're what i've been looking for, you're what i couldn't find. but then as i spend time here alone in this frigid cold state i realise that maybe i'm the only one of us ready for this, maybe you need to spend time alone to finally be ready to really fall, and it ( Read more... )

drunk on my bed just wanting to finally make you fall. playing with eachothers bodies it happened, i can somewhat remember that... i don't remember the good bye tho, maybe i didnt want to say goodbye. but you stayed. i fell asleep and you stayed. you stayed there and held me and kissed me and talked to my sub concious for a good hour.

and you say ( Read more... )