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stolen off bonafiide
1) List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Disable comments.
4) Never discuss it again.
1. ive lost you over this past year and i really wish that i didnt, you were such a great person in my eyes, but the things that youve done have completely ruined how i look at you. ive tried fixing things with us, but theres no effort from you.. and that hurts me, it REALLY does.. because that just shows how much i mean to you --nothing. youve destroyed my positive outlook on a lot of things, because of you a lot of things about me have changed, just 'cause you couldnt put a little time and/or effort into keeping up with me, or letting me catch up with you.. thanks for the smiles, but youre just not worth it anymore.
2. i look up to you so much, you're honestly my other half and i dont know where i'd be, or what i'd do without you. you've screwed up bad during the course of your life, but i have so much respect for you.. for acknowledging what you've done, and at least taking the initiative to fix what you've ruined. also, for being like a sister to me. when i feel like breaking to pieces, youre the one that i can turn to all the time, i love you with every bit of my and im so proud of you for the accomplishments that youve made recently =) the passion that you have for what you do and what you plan to do with your life, inspires me so much. you're a great person, you really are, and im glad that i can say i wont be closer with anyone than i will be with you... you're the sister i never had ♥
3. sometimes a brutal outlook or response about something is the best one. even though your bluntness has made me cry before, i thank you so much for being the one to tell me the truth and be the reasonable one in my life. youre my rock, i know that if im hurt.. youre there... you keep me sane and you listen to me and support me through whatever has me feeling down. i know i can lean on you when people have me feeling like im worthless. thanks for always being so reassuring when i need it the most. the humour and stupidity sure take away from it, too... you're sweet, unfortunately some people just fail to see the real you, which is a real shame because you're great.
4. you need a huge kick in the ass, you need to wake up and smell the roses because youre so blind right now and it gets me so mad. me ? im trying right now, im trying really hard to suceed because failure is something that i cant afford. but no matter how hard i try, it just doesnt seem to be good enough. but you, you dont do shit and you expect everything to be served to you on a silver platter, and you take and take and TAKE until it hurts. you take from people and you pass it off as your own, you lie you cheat you steal... whatever it takes to make you look good in the end. sometimes i dont see that as a bad thing, because sometimes thats what you need to make it in life, but the way you use people disgusts me. i wish i was as ruthless as you, that way feelings wouldnt get in the way of life, emotion and remorse wouldnt phase me.
5. you're the missing piece to my puzzle, you really are. a life without you would be unthinkable because of the impact you have on me. im connected to you so much in so many ways, it breaks my heart to pieces when youre unhappy, but when youre happy... i feed off the happiness you feel, and feel equally or more happy just knowing that youre gonna be okay for another day without any doubt. me without you is something that doesnt exist, because without you i'd fall apart and vice versa. you have completed me in every way imaginable and you have always done so. if there was one word to describe you, it'd be amazingincrediblewonderfulperfect and a hell lot more because youre just... everything. i am eternally bound to you by the heart.
6. there'll always be something about you that i can never let go of, and i dont want to let go of you.. i never did. how ever much you hurt me, how ever much i hated you and wanted NOTHING to do with you, its just a huge lie that i try to fool myself with. but really, im not fooling anyone, especially not myself because i know that lies are just the easy way out of getting hurt... and you know what ? sometimes its okay to blind yourself from the truth, purposely, because the hurt isnt always worth the preceeding happiness. i wish we had never let go... but then again, i never did.
7. im done with you, im sick of being hurt by you. i dont wanna hurt anymore, its not fair.
8. you're so unbelievably fake and i hate you. stop lying about shit to get attention, youre so fucking horrible and i hate what you do just so people will notice you. suicide attempts ? my friggen ASS, you little attention whore. honestly, nobody would miss you so go fucking die.
9. you were great. i was so blinded by my desire for the smallest feeling of happiness, that i let myself sink to that level. from the minute i met you, i knew that everything that happened would just be fake and a miserable attempt to force out the sadness i was feeling. nothing was real between us, you know it too. regret quickly followed everything between you and i. what you did hurt the both of us, but i dont blame you for all the things that happened. rough times with us, but i dont regret it now... everything is slowly turning out for the better, we just need to keep it under wraps, or else you'll hurt more people than me.
10. even though you screwed up and tried to fix it, its just not enough right now. i respect you for trying, but youre still in your little dream world. you need to wake up. i dont wanna be mean because i love you so much but because i love you that much, i wanna tell you this. i wanna tell you to wake up and GROW up, because you seriously need to. for the sake of the people that love you, please, grow out of what youre doing and stop hurting the ones that care, because in the end, we're all that youve got.