I think she's gone, but I'll be sure for safety's keeping.
Right. Right. I have no idea where she could have gone. No idea. I...well, I've written to all the places she might have gone, parents included, not that I think it likely. I've even told the Aurors and police that if they see her trying to do something stupid, that...that I need to know. Not that...je suis tres inquiete.
I never thought she'd do it. I...foutre. foutre. That's her wedding ring in my pocket. This is...not...oh, fuck. It's all fucking falling apart and I can't even...oh dieu, what can I do? What...
Mathieu. he'll make things seem better. He must. There, my nice little boy, with me...what am I supposed to do with him tomorrow? I have work...merde. Think, Abime, think. You can't curl up in a ball and cry yourself to sleep just yet. You can't. Things need to be done. it hurts. oh fuck, it hurts. I didn't realise how much I really relied on this.
And...yeah, it's my fault, isn't it? She really believed I'd ruined her life. I...I never thought. Nothing in my life ever fucking works, does it? I always find a way to royally fuck this up. I hoped...I really did hope this was different.
Oh lord, I'm losing control of this too. I need...I need someone. Fuck.
Are you busy right now? I really need you. Bring cigarettes.
I know this is really, horribly short notice, but can you do me a huge favour tomorrow? I am really sorry to ask you, but I don't have a lot of choice. have to be the responsible parent. Could you please watch Mathieu whilst I'm at work tomorrow? Just for tomorrow. I can show you all the stuff you need to do, it's not too complicated.
Thank you so much.
*in slightly bad Italian, because he tries*
Love, if you can read this right now, please, just take a moment to do so. I am worried about you. I am so, so worried and I love you. Please, tell me where you are. I'm not about to beg you to come back or anything else, I just want to know you're okay. I really do. But I am so sorry. So very sorry, and I want you to know if you change your mind, at any time, you will always be welcome back here, I promise, as I love you and only you and nothing will change that for me. More than anything, please just tell me where you have gone and if you're okay. That's all I ask.
Te amo,
Abime.
First person to send me a cigarette via an owl wins fifty house points. Or eternal gratitude. Take your pick.