identity wank ahoy

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Characters: Roxas and Aqua to start...Ven and Nams later on since I'm not wasting space making multiple posts for his angsty business.
Setting: People's rooms, though he's going to move around quite a bit.
Format: Whatevs, we coo' guys, we coo'.
Summary: Set after this thread. Roxas, naturally, has to go inquire about this possibility with a few

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FIRST CHAT - AQUA

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He was well aware he shouldn't take other people's words so seriously, but...there couldn't be any harm in making sure, right? Roxas was well aware that Nams could have told him the truth, but it just didn't seem right to ask her. Asking Ven wasn't any better of an idea, really, just because of how awkward it would be.

So, naturally, it was decided that asking Aqua was his best bet. He didn't know her nearly as well, but she was a sensible woman, and she knew Ven, too. If anyone could give him straight information, it was her.

...he still felt awkward when he knocked on the door to her room, though. But it was better to put this silly theory to rest before he sat an worried himself sick.

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She was reviewing one of her spellbooks when the knock on the door to room 1-07 came. Aqua hadn't yet spoken much to the other girls that resided in this room, and didn't keep track of their habits -- she almost tried to avoid them, in certain ways.

So when the sound at the door reached her ears, she eagerly slipped off of her bed, closing the book in her lap and setting it gingerly back in her trunk before she went to answer the door. Aqua set her hand on the knob, and even twisted it a little, but a thought struck her before she went through with actually opening up the barrier to the room's threshold.

"Who is it?" questioned the woman, trying not to sound too suspicious. She had to be a little more careful in this tower. Who knew what could be lurking?

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"Uh? Oh! It's Roxas. I...had to ask you something."

A pause, and he ventured a guess.

"It's...sort of about Ven."

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The voice came, and she almost sighed in something like relief. Following his answer, Aqua opened the door, peeking out through the small space between it and the frame to ensure that it really was Roxas.

Satisfied with what she saw, Aqua opened the door completely so that she could step out of the room, offering a friendly smile. Once she was out in the hallway, she closed the door behind her. She normally would have invited Roxas into the room to talk, but considering the room wasn't entirely her own, she thought it was probably best to carry on the conversation outside of it.

"That's alright," she said, her hand falling away from the doorknob. "What do you want to ask?"

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Roxas took a step back, putting a respectful amount of distance between himself and Aqua. He wasn't the best with bodylanguage, but he didn't want to come off like he was bullying or harassing her for information...especially with the questions he wanted to ask.

"I want to know more about Ven. Where he comes from, how you know him. If, that's okay of course." He took a pause to collect his thoughts, tugging at one of the colored strings wrapped around his pinky. "...I can't ask him, so I figured you'd be the best person to ask."

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Aqua gave Roxas a mildly confused look. Part of her wanted to know why he couldn't just ask Ventus these things himself -- he certainly knew Ventus better than he knew Aqua, at this point, being his roommate and all. But, maybe he was just worried about being invasive. So, she came up with a better question.

"I can tell you," she replied. "But, can I ask what brought this on?" It wasn't that she didn't trust Roxas or anything, but she was a little iffy on giving out information on one of her best friends. She wanted to at least know why he was suddenly so interested.

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...he should have figured she'd ask. He'd came to her because she was responsible, right?

"...well." The picking at the string got more obvious and less distracted. "Someone on the network brought up the possibility of...something, and I want to rule out the possibility." He hung his head somewhat, giving a sigh. "It makes me uncomfortable, but it's not important. I just want to rule it out."

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Her eyes flickered down to the string on his finger. "I don't think you would ask about it if it wasn't important to you," she returned softly. But, instead of following up on an argument, she looked back up to Roxas' face before she answered his original question

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The information took it's time to absorb, and Roxas took an unusually long pause after Aqua had finished speaking. This was a lot to think about- and a lot he could ask about, but the blonde still was trying to keep from giving in to his paranoia.

"Who was the other mentor?" A pause, and he seemed to be getting more anxious-sounding. "Do you know where Twilight Town is? Has anyone ever mentioned it to you?" It was obvious she didn't want to explain about the 'something' that had happened, but he'd pulled the string completely off by then. He had to go through with this, even if he was getting a bit worked up. "What happened to him?"

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"Please don't get upset," was the first thing Aqua said to the slew of new questions. "Whatever possibility you're thinking about, nothing I say is going to help you if you lose your head

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He gave Aqua a guilty look when she asked him not to get upset, glancing either way down the hall to ensure they weren't garnering eavesdroppers. These were personal questions, and here he was demanding she answer them in public.

"Xehanort...?" The name felt funny in his mouth, but he didn't even dwell on it. "Wait, darkness? How do you even do something like that

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Aqua didn't seem offended at Roxas' apparent regret. She heard him out patiently, and the look of concern on her face said that she wished she had some way to disprove the theory that was bothering him. But if he didn't remember parts of his life, then there was probably nothing she could use to reassure him

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...this wasn't what he wanted to hear about, not at all. He'd set himself up for a yes or a no, not stuff about the damned-

Unconsciously, he'd already brought about Kingdom Key. The weapon seemed to startle him, but instead of dropping it, his hand just tightened. It took all his effort to throw the damn thing again, since he'd already learned how futile that was. It always just came back.

"I just don't get it! Why do I have it? I didn't ask for this, I just want to be normal." He eventually gave in, dropping the key at his feet and holding the side of his head. "Once I discovered it, I started seeing things, and weird things kept happening...those stupid cloaked guys trying to take me somewhere, and none of my friends ever even saw them! I keep blacking out, waking up in my bed, and none of it makes any sense! Who would want any of this?! I just want it to go away!" His voice cracked, but Roxas kept raving. "Now I'm apparently missing my memory, my friends are dead, and I might be some alternate, thing. I can't take all this..."

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Aqua closed her eyes once Roxas began to freak out, taking in a deep breath and willing herself not to succumb to empathetic distress. Calmness retained, she crouched briefly to gingerly pick up the discarded Kingdom Key. It didn't resonate exactly the same way that Ventus' did, but something about it was nonetheless strikingly familiar. She just couldn't put her finger on it.

"A lot of people don't ask for it," said the magician softly as she ran her fingers up the length of Kingdom Key's shaft. "I'm sorry, Roxas." For the third time this conversation. "Do you want me to help you back to your room?"

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With his freakout successfully over, he seemed to stand there drained, rubbing his face with a scowl at the situation at large. Immature, but he felt so much better.

"...I can manage." He wasn't about to get in to the fact that he wasn't keen on going to his room still. Kingdom Key was taken back, and dissolved in a flash of light soon after. "Thanks, though. Sorry I said all that... none of it's your fault." He finally looked up, trying very hard to keep an even stare but failing pretty spectacularly. "I...might take you up on that offer. Maybe."

He had some other things to take care of, first.

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Aqua gave Roxas a small smile that she hoped was reassuring and not insensitive. "Don't worry about it." She knew it wasn't personal. She lowered her hands back to her sides. "I hope you find out everything you want to know. If you have any other questions, you can ask me. I may not know the answers, but, I'll do my best to help you."

With that, she -- somewhat hesitantly -- reached up to gently smooth a hand over the spikes on top of Roxas' head, as she often did with Ven. "Good luck."