I don't mean to be a selfish bitch Leah, I'm sorry that you think you mean nothing to me. If that's what you think than you can fuck off because that was the first doubt in my mind about going was the fact that I'd be gone on YOUR 16th birthday. And the fact that I still want to be there and am not going to California probably means jack shit to you but you know? what ever you seem to think tho it's fine with me. I can't do or say anything to you to persuade you to let this go and remember how close we really are and how we always said we'd never let a guy get between us. If I were in your situation, despite how much I could ever hate a guy you like I'd never give up one of the best friendships of all time because of it. That's my choice though. Looks like you've changed too Leah.
Really - is that what you want? Is for me to fuck off. Say it again Ceejay. If that's what you want then I will. No problem, just tell me. And mean it. If you mean it - I'm gone! And btw - I love how you turn this on me... I'm the one who's changed, how you'd never not like a guy that I like.. BULLSHIT! That's totally dumb. If I were to change like you have over a guy - you'd hate him and me too!! If I were to continue to ditch you, and do nothing but drugs, and just block you out of my life because of a guy - ID GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO HATE HIM! But like I said - if you want me gone... TELL ME NOW! So I can get over what I thought would really be a true friendship. If it's not what you're willing for inside and out - TELL ME TO FUCK OFF AGAIN.
And by the way - I DIDN"T GIVE UP! I tried for over a month or two to get you back Ceejay. It's hard to NOT GIVE UP, when I tried and kept getting shut out every time!! And you said you wouldn't give up our friendship for a guy - but wait, YOU DID. YOU engaged all of this. You're the one who GAVE UP ON ME!
Re: Wow Leahbaby_swaff23June 12 2005, 16:14:53 UTC
First and foremost- I haven't given up Leah, I won't do that to you or me. I don't want our friendship to turn into another situation you've been in before- I know how hurt you were from that, I've had it happen to me. It hurts...why would I honestly do that?? And to you especially!!!! I don't get it Leah, I really don't. I don't know what else to do. Joe and I have worked things out and I want you to be happy for me and support me but lately you seem to think differently and I hate it. It's my decision and if I get hurt again, that's my choice. All I want is support and faith from you, your input means more to me than anyone elses. All I can see when I look in the mirror is a changed person now when I used to be able to look in the mirror thinking I have everything I've ever wanted. ( The best friend and the entire world, a great family, guy situations were another story)...but everything was great. And you were always there to say "I'm standing by your side, I love you, Don't worry It'll be ok" and so much more. Now it's like I don'
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