Don't read this unless you're really bored... it's more me trying to recall it than anything ( Read more... )

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that may or may not be right....

drinking just isn't fun for me anymore. it doesn't make me happy, it makes me sad. every single time. why? tonight was great, tons of amazing people in a great house - the perfect party, yet I simply could not enjoy it at all. rather than feeling more connected with everyone around me, drinking makes me feel like I'm outside of the moment looking ( Read more... )

note to self: chill the fuck out.

fuck! I think I completely fucked up with him... why did I have to get all nervous and jittery and stupid?? that rarely happens to me... and the bigger question is, why do I even care????? I'M SUCH A DWEEB! oh well, these crush things are always fun. he's hot, he's smart, he's interested, I'm happy. too bad he probably thinks I'm a dumbass with IQ ( Read more... )

and I just thought I'd share ( Read more... )

If I had to describe myself I definitely think I would say that I am open. So why do I feel so closed off from everything right now? I don’t have problems saying things, no. I can say anything to almost anyone without really giving much of a shit. Admitting them, though, now that’s a whole different story. I’m the hardest and the easiest ( Read more... )

.... looks like it was.

fuck fuck fuck I hope that wasn't a dumbass decision....

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