So, I've figured some things out, thanks to venting on my myspace blog recently. Without going through all of the venting again, I feel as though I am being manipulated by Jared. I feel as though I am his puppet on his strings, and I'm not that kind of person. I am usually a very independent person who pulls away when people start giving me ( Read more... )

Sun's coming up... I hate not being able to sleep. I haven't tried, not yet at least, but I know that as of this moment, I wouldn't have been able to sleep because my mind has been way too active. It's getting cold in my house right now because it's been so cold during the last few nights... But I've been sitting here, working on my computer, ( Read more... )

It was another pretty good weekend... On Friday I got to spend sometime with Ashley, and Jared and a bunch of other people. We met up with my brother and Josh at about 3:00 and we hung out until around 4:30 and then we all headed off to bed. Then on Saturday, I went over to Ashley's to go riding, but we had all sorts of problems, like missing ( Read more... )

How many people have ever just had memories follow them around for an entire day? It started with me yesterday, so many memories... So many things that I had forgotten, and it continues today. I have sat here thinking about being little and in kindergarten with Christina, Tiffany falling down the hill while skateboarding and nearly breaking her ( Read more... )

Why is it that when I finally feel better about myself, my life goes to hell? I mean, I am finally out of the darkness and it's like now everything goes bad. It's so hard to hold my head above this water now, I don't know how long I can do it. I'm getting so tired of trying. Even after the break of being myself over the weekend didn't make me ( Read more... )

Jared and I made an aggreement that we wouldn't call each other for the next few days, just email each other and stay in contact that way.. Now, I'm not a huge fan of doing this but I'm trying to do anything that will help him and if he wants to not call me, then that's fine by me.. But anyway, he has yet to email me. It's not fair. I am sure ( Read more... )

So it feels like history is repeating itself. I hate it ( Read more... )

I haven't done any of these for a long time but I did tonight. I was really bored so I figured I'd spend my time doing something absolutely worthless. Lol. Right now I don't have anything better to do... *Shakes her head* Don't get me started on anything going on with me though because I'll never stop. But off I am for tonight... Ciao.

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I'm sitting here at home, trying to figure out what there is do to... I'm kind of stuck inside due to the rain and the fact that I don't have any money to even go anywhere even if I had anywhere to go. So I've been playing around on the internet all afternoon but even that can only go so far ( Read more... )

So the semester is coming the a close... I don't have a final tomorrow, but I should probably be studying for my final on Thursday but I just can't seem to focus on anything at all. So I've been messing around with the music on my computer, thinking about a lot of things. I started of by trying to remember what my finals were like at West Liberty ( Read more... )