LJ things looks so different every time I come back to it. They keep changing it for the worst ( Read more... )

I called him as soon as I got off of work hoping he was getting off soon too. According to what he had told me he wouldn't be getting out for another two hours. Sure enough he was on his way to my place. He said he would race me there and I laughed because he works twice as far as I do. As I drove up to the apartment I noticed the light was on ( Read more... )

The past is ours to keep. We can frame pieces of it up on the wall. Keep some in our wallets so that they are handy enough to bring out at any given moment. We can bury some in the backyard. Take some with us to Europe and hide them somewhere clever. Mount some on our pillows, sprinkle some into the ocean, flush some down the toilet, whatever our ( Read more... )

Why has this thing gotten so complicated? I just wanted to be terribly vauge in a short paragraph and be off to bed.

Every song reminds me of someone new, someone old. I am moving forward but I am not moving on. I miss you and I miss the past but the future looks o so new and fun and good. I reach out for it and it is pushed back. I will not chase ( Read more... )

Im an idiot and I totally spaced FHE tonight. I wanted to go. So instead I sit here missing him, wondering if I'm in love. I have felt numb for so long I scarcely remember the feeling. I know I'm ridiculous, I just don't know how else to be....

It has truly been a spectacular year. In comparison to last year is it even better than spectacular. Well I knew it would be and here we are in the middle of it. Although it hardly feels like the middle but more like the end. The holidays always fly by us and I wouldn't have it any other way. Move along like Raych's hottie says. I'm addicted to ( Read more... )

"You want a donut?" lol Some girl just stuck her head out of her office and asked that in a very funny voice. Idea of the year: Love is real and it sucks.  I had nice conversation with a date about love. I think I scared him because he would not voice his opinion or perhaps he didn't have one. The only thing he said is that we have control over it ( Read more... )

I stood there as he sang your song. Everyone but he and I disappeared and I felt more lonely than I have ever known. I was lonely for you. I pictured you coming up behind me. We hugged and everything fell into place. It was us and you knew it too. The next band came on as my cleansing rain. As the abrupt slap of realization. I pictured you five ( Read more... )

He said he can't be there for me. I cried. I cried hard and I was glad because I felt for that moment more close to him that I have felt in a long time. It seems easy to discern truth. No one should interpret my dreams, only me. He left me standing alone. I wouldn't have it any other way. I only lie to myself. If you're laughing now I will know. I ( Read more... )

Well it's been a good week. On ( Read more... )