Lay back enjoy the fall, lover
I lost interest in LJ for a few years now. I completely forgot the password and luckily I remembered the password for the email accound I have this under.. so anyways on with an actual entry.
I absolutley adore the feeling of being on my own! For so long I've hated having cerfews or even the thought of lying to my dad about where I was because he's just over protective. I love not having to answer to a parent. I can come and go as I please, have who I want over as I please, and eat food and not worrying it's aprils as I please. The only thing I would have to complain about would be the fact that even after I moved out, I cannot get my dad or mom off my back. So I guess my landlord screwed Becca and me over on the lease contract..nothing we can do about it now other than live with it and learn from it. My parents are just worried that it might ruin my credit if I don't pay bills on time and they blame this all on getting screwed over in the lease agreement. The only way my credit is going to get ruined is if I don't pay my bills on time, but Becca and I together make more than enough to get by every month and no matter what I tell my parents, they just don't want to believe it.
It's sad to think the person I'm most affraid to tell about my growing up is Ashley. Her and I were an unbreakable friendship and my not being able to afford moving out with her last time I tried really took a huge step back in our friendship. I have never felt this distant from her..not even the first day we met. I still talk to her occasionally, but biggest fear is that she will be bitter about this.
So as of May I haven't had much of a love life of any kind. I've had the occassional rendezvous with my guy friends, but still nothing beats laying in someoones arms knowing they truely do care about you. I just wish I could find something honest and good, but I feel I've lost that out of sheer stupidity. But I guess life is what you make it. I will again find that same love I've had once and it will be better because I will learn from the mistakes I have made in the past.
Seriously though, never regret anything you ever do. Dwelling does nothing. Learn from it and roll with the punches.
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time
I absolutley adore the feeling of being on my own! For so long I've hated having cerfews or even the thought of lying to my dad about where I was because he's just over protective. I love not having to answer to a parent. I can come and go as I please, have who I want over as I please, and eat food and not worrying it's aprils as I please. The only thing I would have to complain about would be the fact that even after I moved out, I cannot get my dad or mom off my back. So I guess my landlord screwed Becca and me over on the lease contract..nothing we can do about it now other than live with it and learn from it. My parents are just worried that it might ruin my credit if I don't pay bills on time and they blame this all on getting screwed over in the lease agreement. The only way my credit is going to get ruined is if I don't pay my bills on time, but Becca and I together make more than enough to get by every month and no matter what I tell my parents, they just don't want to believe it.
It's sad to think the person I'm most affraid to tell about my growing up is Ashley. Her and I were an unbreakable friendship and my not being able to afford moving out with her last time I tried really took a huge step back in our friendship. I have never felt this distant from her..not even the first day we met. I still talk to her occasionally, but biggest fear is that she will be bitter about this.
So as of May I haven't had much of a love life of any kind. I've had the occassional rendezvous with my guy friends, but still nothing beats laying in someoones arms knowing they truely do care about you. I just wish I could find something honest and good, but I feel I've lost that out of sheer stupidity. But I guess life is what you make it. I will again find that same love I've had once and it will be better because I will learn from the mistakes I have made in the past.
Seriously though, never regret anything you ever do. Dwelling does nothing. Learn from it and roll with the punches.
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time