Cas. T_T
APPROPRIATE ICON HAS NEVER BEEN MORE APPROPRIATE WTF.
Most simultaneously awkward and heartbreaking scene EVER, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. WHO WROTE THIS EPISODE AND DID THEY DO IT TO TEASE US ON PURPOSE?
I MEAN. SAM YOU WERE SO HAPPY TO FIND OUT THAT CAS WAS ALIVE.
AND THEN YOU PRAYED TO HIM.
THEN THIS HAPPENS. WHY.
IT DIDN'T GET AWKWARD UNTIL YOU FUCKING MADE IT AWKWARD, SAM. D: D: D:
Dude, I've managed to be almost okay with the way everyone's been treating Cas like shit up until now because it could be rationalized, but how can this be rationalized? WHY WOULD IT BE SO AWKWARD TO HUG HIM, SAM? (Apart from knowing that Dean has to have the first hug because they are OTP, but come on, this is not a realistic rationalization on Sam's part.) This is not about some gay love -- I don't even ship Sam/Cas -- this is about Castiel who went to Hell and back and then went through Hell on earth all over again for these bleeding Winchesters and came out of it without a single friend who will show him a simple gesture of affection. Without a single friend who will even LET him show them a simple gesture of affection, even when he clearly wants to.
I am sitting here picturing Cas being so :( and frustrated over Dean's eternal and entitled ungratefulness and then SO HOPEFUL that Sam will be more of a friend (god knows he needs one right now) that he answers Sam's prayer immediately when he won't even answer Dean's call for help sometimes. He came not because there was any need to, but because he'd been so worried and he CARED ABOUT SAM. Cas, who doesn't hold a grudge over "help me or I'll kill you" when even Bobby is having a difficult time forgiving Sam, who chewed Dean out for the damage he could've done to Sam.
And you know why Sam prayed for him? To trick Cas into spilling everything. "Bobby told me everything that happened but plz walk me through the details."
Jesus, fuck this. Cas needs a t-shirt that says "I died, fell, and died again for the Winchesters and all I got was this lousy t-shirt." EXCEPT HE DIDN'T EVEN GET A LOUSY T-SHIRT. NOTHING. UGH RAGE.
Was there more to this episode? Oh, right, there was Cas chewing Dean out (upclose) in an angry lovers' spat and being very irrational about it because he CARES ABOUT SAM, but we'd already seen it.
There was also this:
Because Dean and Bobby are the only ones in Sam's life who matter. Obviously.
On the bright side, Dean was really cute in this episode.
Especially when he was being all ♥ over Sam being Sammy again.
I mean, I'm actually really happy about Sam'n'Dean, even if my Cas rage is kind of overshadowing it. And I'm thrilled our show is back! No real opinion on the Mother of All but we'll see where it goes.
One more side note that no one will care about, but it kind of amused me on a personal level: I've now been in Portugal for so long that it seems awkward that they don't kiss each other on the cheek when saying goodbye, hahahha. WAY MORE AWKWARD THAN IT WOULD BE FOR SAM TO HUG CAS. *COUGH*
Anyway, NOW OFF TO WATCH FRINGE WHICH I'M SURE WON'T ENRAGE ME.
ETA: I forgot to mention, Dean saying Cas is "like a child" was also kind of cute. There was a bit of fondness in there under the exasperation, I think. ♥
Most simultaneously awkward and heartbreaking scene EVER, whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. WHO WROTE THIS EPISODE AND DID THEY DO IT TO TEASE US ON PURPOSE?
I MEAN. SAM YOU WERE SO HAPPY TO FIND OUT THAT CAS WAS ALIVE.
AND THEN YOU PRAYED TO HIM.
THEN THIS HAPPENS. WHY.
IT DIDN'T GET AWKWARD UNTIL YOU FUCKING MADE IT AWKWARD, SAM. D: D: D:
Dude, I've managed to be almost okay with the way everyone's been treating Cas like shit up until now because it could be rationalized, but how can this be rationalized? WHY WOULD IT BE SO AWKWARD TO HUG HIM, SAM? (Apart from knowing that Dean has to have the first hug because they are OTP, but come on, this is not a realistic rationalization on Sam's part.) This is not about some gay love -- I don't even ship Sam/Cas -- this is about Castiel who went to Hell and back and then went through Hell on earth all over again for these bleeding Winchesters and came out of it without a single friend who will show him a simple gesture of affection. Without a single friend who will even LET him show them a simple gesture of affection, even when he clearly wants to.
I am sitting here picturing Cas being so :( and frustrated over Dean's eternal and entitled ungratefulness and then SO HOPEFUL that Sam will be more of a friend (god knows he needs one right now) that he answers Sam's prayer immediately when he won't even answer Dean's call for help sometimes. He came not because there was any need to, but because he'd been so worried and he CARED ABOUT SAM. Cas, who doesn't hold a grudge over "help me or I'll kill you" when even Bobby is having a difficult time forgiving Sam, who chewed Dean out for the damage he could've done to Sam.
And you know why Sam prayed for him? To trick Cas into spilling everything. "Bobby told me everything that happened but plz walk me through the details."
Jesus, fuck this. Cas needs a t-shirt that says "I died, fell, and died again for the Winchesters and all I got was this lousy t-shirt." EXCEPT HE DIDN'T EVEN GET A LOUSY T-SHIRT. NOTHING. UGH RAGE.
Was there more to this episode? Oh, right, there was Cas chewing Dean out (upclose) in an angry lovers' spat and being very irrational about it because he CARES ABOUT SAM, but we'd already seen it.
There was also this:
Because Dean and Bobby are the only ones in Sam's life who matter. Obviously.
On the bright side, Dean was really cute in this episode.
Especially when he was being all ♥ over Sam being Sammy again.
I mean, I'm actually really happy about Sam'n'Dean, even if my Cas rage is kind of overshadowing it. And I'm thrilled our show is back! No real opinion on the Mother of All but we'll see where it goes.
One more side note that no one will care about, but it kind of amused me on a personal level: I've now been in Portugal for so long that it seems awkward that they don't kiss each other on the cheek when saying goodbye, hahahha. WAY MORE AWKWARD THAN IT WOULD BE FOR SAM TO HUG CAS. *COUGH*
Anyway, NOW OFF TO WATCH FRINGE WHICH I'M SURE WON'T ENRAGE ME.
ETA: I forgot to mention, Dean saying Cas is "like a child" was also kind of cute. There was a bit of fondness in there under the exasperation, I think. ♥