I am at yet another low in my life. Everything that has happened to me is taking it's toll. For what I have done to myself, I deserve the pain.

I'm afraid tomorrow will be another mistake.

I finally got internet at home! Weeeee ( Read more... )

Last night I went over to Patricia & Wonteel's place. Patricia was going to have to drive her brother in law to Pensacola bc he was going to be stationed in Germany, & I was going to go along for the ride, but turns out someone else took him. I didn't really feel like riding that long anyway. So we went to Ruby Tuesday & to Bellbottoms. We got ( Read more... )

Why do you say you waiting? You are not the one that is waiting! The ball is in your court but you don't do anything. I'm the one waiting. I won't wait not knowing whether or not I have anything to wait for. I will have to get on with my life. But I don't want to do that without you. Just tell me what you want. You have to talk to me otherwise I ( Read more... )

why do you play games ( Read more... )

indescribable, unexplainable
was all He intended was to have a glimpse?
No
His love radiates through us
always
proof of His existence
Love is not by chance
let it happen
it's just us
let them say what they want
they just don't know
not meant to be perfect
He made us the way we are
He made me for you
don't complicate it,
let it happen.

I don't want to post some of my business because it's Jonathan's business too. Basically we got together Friday night and hung out. We are back together. I am angry but it's no one's business besides me & him. If any of you read his last post in my LJ, he lied. (I deleted it anyway). Bad mistake, he's about to hear all about it. Or maybe I'll save ( Read more... )

Me and Jonathan are supposed to talk friday night. I don't have any idea what to expect. I'll probably be a nervous wreck until then.

Plus I am broke. And I'm getting old.

Happy birthday to me.

I've been listening to my burned copy of the Kelly Clarkson album lately. I can really relate to some of the songs.

( Anytime )

I really haven't written much about my feelings about my breakup with Jonathan. I haven't really cried. It's starting now already, I think I'll be sobbing by the time I'm done with this. He told me I was his soulmate. I believed him. I loved him so much and I still do. I always will. (Yes the tears are running down my face now.) I just want to be ( Read more... )