hurr..

[traediras]

I don't expect anyone to read rants these days...

Okay, I'm gonna rant. I'm sorry if all this gets shown, but I don't see a point in hiding it because I have nothing to hide.

One of the things that I always fail to understand is why I get ignored all the time... I mean, I feel like I expect people to come and look at my art, hear about my life,

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[foxchibi]

I really shouldn't have read this, but like you, I'm doing anything but studying right now

[traediras]

I'll be honest and say I didn't expect you to comment on this entry.

*hugs tight* But I really appreciate you doing so... it means a lot to me.

I dunno, I suppose I am on some roller coaster where I'm happy, and then I'm depressed. But it doesn't help that some people just.... seem so fucking egotistical. Hell, my best friend's (the guy who organises a lot of this stuff) girlfriend shared similar thoughts to mine, and I suppose I felt better afterwards because I got to have a decent conversation with someone.

You're more than just lucky though Arfy, you're an amazing person and you deserve all the friends that you get <333

[foxchibi]

Believe me, you aren't the only one who tears themselves up inside about how shallow and self-centered people can be. I make an effort not to be, but the human race as a whole is like that, it's just something you've got to learn to deal with (as effing annoying as it is.)

That's part of being a teenager I suppose. X'D The roller coaster ride of hormones. Just work on getting yourself out there, and if you don't feel like putting in the effort with this group, wait until you start college and work on making new friends there. :o I know it's easier to give advice than to actually do it, but I don't really know any other way.

Fffffff, not commenting on your journal only proves your point, lol...

[traediras]

Believe me, I do have some great friends that I've really gotten to know well, but I just feel left out by them at times. I admit I have no desire to be a party animal or something along those lines though, trust me X3

I'm sure I'll make new friends when I head to college though next year :3 <3

*snuggleluffs*

[armaina]

Believe me I've been there many times, feeling isolated from friends. On the one hand struggling with interaction in general, on top of that not knowing if the reason why I wasn't getting contacted was because they didn't like me, or because they thought I didn't like them, but I never knew how to ask or how to tell. I love people, I love social environments, I crave human interaction, but boy does it ever leave me baffled and confused at times

[traediras]

Mmmm... I love human interaction as well, but I agree when you said that you get baffled at times.

I do like attention, I really do, but I'm the same way where I don't want people to be under the impression that the world revolves around me, because I know that's wrong.

I do want to break out of it, but I just.... have no idea where to start at all. *hug* I appreciate your advice though, I'll take it to heart <3

[armaina]

Well for a start, if it helps, this is where I started to turn things around for myself. Once I was upset and I had mentioned to my mom I had felt left out and was worried no one wanted me around. My mom ask me if I had tried asking first rather than waiting to be asked, because if I didn't even try I'd have no one but myself to blame.

I've taken that to heart ever since, and it's very true. (the hard part is just figuring out when you're being too nosy/pushy >_>)

[traediras]

Talk about staring into a mirror.

I feel the exact way you felt all that time ago. I just... I don't know, I feel as though it's a lot more polite to let other people ask me if I wanted to go out and do stuff, rather than ask them if I can come along, because I see it as being rude.

I'll see what happens though, I still have exams to get done first though, then I'll worry about my social life :D

[_dragoncat_]

(yummy long post

[traediras]

I have no idea how to respond to this..... I honestly don't. All I know is that I've just become real. fucking. depressed. Just like that. And I'm sorry but I needed to have a good rant even though it's (to you) screaming that the world should revolve around me and everyone should bow down to me or something like that. The truth is, I don't seek that desire, I just... feel frustrated is all I'm saying. And I can't just bottle things up or rant the ears off of certain people, because if I do then I'm pretty much doing to snap big time and /will/ upset a lot of people.

And you need to know that I've always cared about you, even when you've seemed a bit off at times. Don't think that our friendship isn't genuine, because it is, even if we don't talk much anymore.

[_dragoncat_]

(cont.)
I don’t usually post how my life is going unless it’s happy. Like getting Roger or going to Sweden. You could write a journal about being an uncle again. It’s all about how you portray yourself and sometimes its just best not say much at all.

Sometimes you have to be your own knight in shining armor. I know for me, it doesn’t work to rely on people here and I have to learn to reconcile things myself. Why should people care about me when I don’t care about them? You have to balance out the you and the rest, can just be all about you and it can’t just be all about them.
I could tell you to lighten up, but in the end you are your own person and you’ll decide what to do next. I’m here to talk.