sometimes i chat with you.
sometimes i wish i could say that i miss you.

Yesterday evening, Fifty my tita's great dane passed away. Just a bit more than a month ago, he was confined in the hospital - he had very high creatinine that was just going higher and higher even with very aggressive medication. He had dialysis and a whole lot of medication.  My tita considered putting him to sleep because the creatinine level ( Read more... )

I wish I didn't feel bad but I do. And I can't even pinpoint the reason why. And also, well.. I miss you. Why can't I follow your lead and.. move on? Blah ( Read more... )

Went to practice last night where we did some real fun drills. Practiced line trap/cup which was pretty cool. I was in for exactly one score before I got hit on my chest so hard it was incredibly painful. After the score i excused myself from playing to hug myself in the bathroom. When i went back out, i saw Jenny on the grass and people ( Read more... )

Three weeks ago on Sunday I started driving by myself. It all began with a lot of insistence on my part and a lot of head shaking on my dad's part. That Sunday, day two of the Summer League, I made it a point to drive myself. I was so afraid of the parking cos all the places I've driven to (with my parents around) there were big open spaces for ( Read more... )

Remember when you were 16 and angry with the world?
A decade later you are sad.
In between were happy moments, unbelievable ones even.
And then there is now.
You don't know where it is coming from.
You don't know how to cure it.
It's immense. And it's lonely.
And I"m scared I may not be able to get out of it.

Tonight, I realized ( Read more... )

Will someone hold me down?
Can you be the anchor?
Where are my two feet?
What about those little buggers?
Found the lifeline?
What about the lifesavers?

Both were weren't the happiest of dreams. But one was sadder than the other one cos it hurt me. But when I woke up and just played them in my mind, i realised that the sadder one was the more meaningful one, because there was an element of caring ( Read more... )

An interesting event happened last night outside S. in the corner ( Read more... )