02. definitions of slanted grace: seamus, hermione
** read at your own discretion
Chapters - 1/1
Rating - T
E-mail - tragedius@gmail.com
Summary - they gave up too easily.
Notes - angst, starvation, drug use, implied self-injury, implied sex.
break.
transitive verb.
-- to weaken or destroy, as in spirit or health; overwhelm with adversity.
break is to seamus finnegan, receiver of bad news under the majestic wing-span of his beloved owl. cigarette shaking between his lips, he opens the letter, crisp and sealed and white. too white against his blood-stained fingers.
juxtapose.
transitive verb.
-- to place side by side, especially for comparison or contrast.
juxtapose is to the white letter in his red hands. the people left around him refuse to look at his hands because they know their eyes will travel to the scars on his arms.
purge.
transitive verb.
-- to rid of sin, guilt, or defilement.
purge is to his inability to save his best friend.
friend.
noun.
-- a person with whom one knows, likes, and trusts; a person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause.
friend is to dean thomas.
the letter of confirmation. seamus rips the letter with what little energy he has left and watches the torn pieces fall to the ground. he rubs his eyes with the palm of his hands and blows smoke without leaving enough time to breathe proper oxygen.
he thinks he'll die faster this way.
suffer.
verb.
-- to feel pain or distress; sustain loss, injury, harm, or punishment.
suffer is to hermione granger, one-third of a whole left in the aftermath. weeks have passed and she's been slacking in school work and her eyes are hollow and her body weak.
starve.
verb.
-- to deprive of food so as to cause suffering or death.
starve is to her purpose. redemption, something like that. she believes in redemption and believes in purging and believes in everything else to be led astray from everything broken.
distract.
transitive verb.
-- to pull in conflicting emotional directions; unsettle.
distract is to her want of mind. she can't bear to think about her lack of knowledge on the battlefield, her failures and weaknesses because she let her two best friends in the whole wide world die before her very eyes.
lovers.
noun.
-- persons who loves or is loved.
lovers is to harry potter and ron weasley.
she doesn't want to live anymore. she hates the unfairness -- the injustice -- of it all. she keeps on going, though, because of cliché plotlines: they wouldn't want you to die. she hates that.
if everyone stops looking, she would let her heart break just enough to sleep forever.
second war. pandemonium. deaths.
alone now.
in that order.
she feels everyone screaming around her and she's helpless. she can't even stand on her own two feet. the castle is burning and she's locked herself in the tower. she can't bring herself to go anywhere. too weak and too ready for this.
and she hears her name being called out but she won't answer. she doesn't want to be saved.
but the door somehow swings open and seamus finnegan is standing there, his outline glowing in the firelight from outside.
beautiful.
adjective.
-- delighting the senses or exciting intellectual or emotional admiration.
beautiful is to the shadows on faces and angles and lines, never-ending.
she likes it this way.
he attempts to pull her up but she struggles and struggles, refuses to scream or wail or cry in frustration. then, tension and angered, half-hearted kisses; naked skin on skin and pushes and silent gratification and stillness. in the end, he's fallen next to her and becomes stationary like her. together, they watch the lights and green flashes and ponder the unsettling glory from it all.
surrender.
verb.
-- to give over or resign (oneself) to something.
they watch and feel as the castle burns in flames, falling down with it.