"You've probably worked out by now that if you think courageous thoughts, you will cross busy streets without looking, and if you think sadistic venal thought, you will find yourself pulling out the chair every time someone is about to sit down. You are what you think. So if you don't want to turn into your father, you don't want to think yourself ( Read more... )

i've been frantically looking for my red glasses. i've taken it for granted, always keeping it in whichever bag i take to work. but a couple of week ago, i realized i couldn't find it anywhere; not in any of my old bags, not in the bedroom and definitely not in my locker. i've searched high and low but still no dice. oh well, i guess i can continue ( Read more... )

spent the week in surrey to house-sit for the aunt while they spend the week off on an alaskan cruise. some people have all the luck...no, i mean dough. but then again i thought if i had money to spare i'd spend it on a trip to flipsville, lounge around on some beach, load up on cheap booze and fresh seafood-ooh-la-la ( Read more... )

i promise, i promise to move my brown ass tomorrow. i'll finally get things done and stop procrastinating. fuck i hate that word. i hate it because that's what i've been doing for the past months. been waiting for something not to happen, knowing that nothing will happen yet i stay still and do nothing nevertheless. ahhh, ennui - such horrible

looking forward to the sun coming out for reals (read as: summer). planning to get off the meds mid-spring. that should be an interesting experience. the problem is, having been a long-sufferer of migraines, i don't deal with bright sunlight very well. they say sunlight should help me with the D, but it would trigger my Ms. maybe i should just do ( Read more... )

last week, last chance for anything not to happen.

i'm keeping my phone free to make sure you're not going to call.

been sitting here, waiting for you not to do anything.

everytime i try, i manage to disconnect,
move farther away from you
so i sit here and watch and listen to your voice
your words sound like sharp crags and waves crashing across cliffs
and winds that howl
green grass, tobacco, ale -
slurs, drawls and lips i will never taste.

english and geography ( Read more... )

hooray for my shiny (well, not shiny but matte) new toy!

p.s.
i love you chris u of editors. you rawked my pants off last night at the commodore. guitarists really turn me on!

or at least i'm hoping that that's just what it really is. which means that all this is merely temporary and that i'm gonna' get outta' this rut soon...ok, maybe in a couple more months.

i've started reading about s.a.d. right after my last visit to the doctor's office. sadly though, since it was just for my vaccination (no. 2 of 3), i didn't see ( Read more... )