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Well, I have a new perspective on "friendship" (Or lack thereof, haha) for the past month or so. And it is this: I don't believe in friendships. Now, keep in mind, that is temporary and it *WILL* pass. But for the time being, that is that. I have many reasons, and quite a few people know what they are and why. I was talking to Randy about all of ( Read more... )

You know, for someone who "cuts" herself (For attention, I am POSITIVE) and "is suicidal", you would think you would be competant to get it right this time. You should have done away with yourself a long time ago, no one likes you and that is a fact. You are a slut and everyone I have talked to about you agrees, which is not the least bit suprising ( Read more... )

Hello..Long time no talk. Anyway, Things have been just fine like usual, and I love Randy as always! He really is the sweetest guy in the whole world! I luff him. I am hearing war talk everywhere I go, and even more deployment talk..it seems that literally every army wife I know's husband is already deployed or is leaving in a couple days. That ( Read more... )

I just got home, I saw the movie "How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days"..It was soo cute. Even humorous. It made me fall in love with Randy all over again -smiles-. I realized all the things she did to push the guy away, almost every girl does at least some of those! After having watched that movie, I am gonna try to be an even better girlfriend, I am ( Read more... )

Today has been one piece of shit. I want today to end and nothing to ever come back. I truly hate today it has really sucked and I am extreeeemely irritable, so bad I just want to jump out of my skin. Everything is pissing me off today and tonight...Randy deleted his journal...pshh..whatever.

Hey...Well today has been interesting,been reading all damn day and at lunch, two guys in the army were on Hrap..I asked them where they went to Basic and they said Fort Benning, but they are Infantry. I told them Randy's MOS and all they said is "we break things that they fix"...Dumbasses. I have to admit I was very suprised that they went to ( Read more... )

It's truly amazing how just looking through your old cd collection can make you realize and remember so many things.. I was looking through my old cds, among the very first I had ever burned. And so many memories raced across my mind. I realized how different of a person I used to be. It's safe to say I am not at all who I used to be. I am 100% ( Read more... )

Hmm. Well this weekend pretty much SUCKED! But at least I didn't have to go to school :) My mom has been on the phone all weekend with my ex-friends' parents, blah blah. Who cares, I just want this to all be over with. Somewhere along the way I have started to convince my mom into letting me drop out and get my GED. You see, I've wanted to do this ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder..what is the world coming to these days? It's such a weird idea, the concept of life. It always gets me, how you think everything is going fine, and that you have close friends and everything else...you feel you finally have "friends"...and you begin to trust. It is amazing how fast trust can wither away though, I have come to ( Read more... )