Four years

[transkael]

Four years have passed since my first testosterone injection. I'm supposed to say "that feels like a lifetime ago," right? Actually, it doesn't. I was living about a block and a half away from where I do right now, working a different low-paying job, still scraping to make ends meet, with a slightly less cynical outlook on life. I was ready and

Comments

[bluetip_echelon]

I have to admit that you were probably one of the very first people i had come across in terms of webpages for the very first time and that your stories and just everything in general gave me SO much confidence to finally come out with who i really am today...it was such a burden growing up and i really had no idea there were so many people who felt and were going through exactly what i was. I just wonder if things would have been different if i had known about it earlier or such but i'm not disappointed in the life i'm leading today. As of right now i'm still pre T but i'm very much looking forward to starting my sessions very soon and getting on it and then getting my surgery. I honestly cannot wait to live with the body i've wanted and felt i should have had my entire life. It's people like you that really help and guide others in the world...i guess i'm at a bit more of an advantage and glad that i fit in the gaming industry so things are a bit different in that world than they would be in let's say a law firm or something...and i

[jake_harold]

Thank you so much for this post. You don't know how much you're helping just by sharing your thoughts so openly and honestly.

Thank you very much indeed!

[lilphatts]

Looking good, but what happened to your page? When I click on it I get a message that says: "The page you are attempting to access has been removed because it violated Tripod's Terms of Service. Please check out Tripod's Help system for more information."

[transkael]

Yeah, I noticed that yesterday. I don't know what's up, but I've contacted Tripod and I'm working it out. I'll post here when it's up again.

[backpedal]

Having your site go down was a down point in my week. You're one of the people who indirectly helped me get established on my own path to transition.
I've lost touch with many of the others due to their personal choice of going stealth and severing ties - so to have your site go down to was a bummer - I liked to read the updates and compare them to my personal reactions to T.

That being said, I have both of your ljs friended and have for prolly years now ( though I've switched ljs a few times ) so feel free to add me back. My girlfriends been visiting Portland a lot lately, her two best friends live there and she hopes that we move there soon.

I haven't been yet - heard it's nice.

-Jordan

[transkael]

Hey Jordan,
I am working on getting the site back up. I still haven't gotten an explination from Tripod about why it was taken down, and although I have been able to recover some stuff, I have been bad about backing up the site and a lot of it is just lost if I can't get it back from Tripod. I will keep everyone posted here about the progress as I regroup and rebuild.
Thanks for the comments.
-Kael

[jcarsner]

Wow... I was just coming here to check up and see about the site also.. and read this amazing entry. It really is something I can relate to, im sure many transguys can, and do. Im not even on T yet, just in the first phase of my transition, working on passing and I really understand what you are going through. Just to let you know, I also run a tripod site similar to yours but more of an "about me" sort of thing.. my thoughts and about my life in general, not so much any changes due to the fact that I am not on T.... but anyway my point was... it was also deleted and I lost about 14 months worth of journal entries and lots of other valuable bits that were on my site. I am slowly working on it to get it back to where it's somewhat informative for info seekers on real life trans experience. I still have no idea what happened.. Anyway, thanks for posting this, you're really good at putting your words down and I think it is the core of many transguys sanity sometimes. I am hapily persuing my transition because of you and your website.