She says its not that I cant change== I just always was the one.
There's something different here. Something happened when I unpacked what i thought to be my world
I can only sum it up in a way that might make any sense at all by saying that I have become my world.
This is hardly another proclomation of independence made in spite of those who chose to be "the pillar that crumbles". This is a statement of a heart that has learned to put the thump in itself. To contract when needed and allow space around for others to pass by freely without contact and to expand when there is too much of a monster inside waiting to open its jowls and swallow up anything within reach. This is the learning that comes from the shifts inside us that nobody knows about besides us-- the only internal changes that ever matter. This is a feeling, a rush of blood and life drugs to the head, an overwhelming urge to never let it die. I feel older. I feel differnet. I feel the way it should have felt every birthday. I feel the way every god danm day should feel. The way every day WILL feel.
Never.
Let.
It.
Die.
I can only sum it up in a way that might make any sense at all by saying that I have become my world.
This is hardly another proclomation of independence made in spite of those who chose to be "the pillar that crumbles". This is a statement of a heart that has learned to put the thump in itself. To contract when needed and allow space around for others to pass by freely without contact and to expand when there is too much of a monster inside waiting to open its jowls and swallow up anything within reach. This is the learning that comes from the shifts inside us that nobody knows about besides us-- the only internal changes that ever matter. This is a feeling, a rush of blood and life drugs to the head, an overwhelming urge to never let it die. I feel older. I feel differnet. I feel the way it should have felt every birthday. I feel the way every god danm day should feel. The way every day WILL feel.
Never.
Let.
It.
Die.