...blinded by the moonlight

Aug 25, 2009 00:40

so...day started so full of motivation and now? I´m PISSED damnit!
..don´t even know where to start. Was such a nice day this morning -.- Actually it was although a nice evening...I mean...I had little problems with the present today but I will work for an hour or something now...that´s not the problem. Went out with some friends tonight. We had a nice dinner in a restaurant here in my hometown and after that we went to my place chatting a little. Everything okay so far. Then...I just wanted to have a little chat with my cutie Krissi (who is actually leaving me on friday for one week so I wanted to seaze the time)...door bell rang -.- (in a movie now there would be some deep sound announcing nothing good -.-)
Who was there: sister of my ex-boyfriend...HALLELUJAH she´s back from holiday....
A few words about her: I really liked here. She´s 20 an sometimes a little...complicated... but as long as I was with Pascal and we were visiting his family it was okay chatting with her. But...fact is: we are NO couple anymore...but she still visits me.....SO DAMN OFTEN! What is so hard to understand in "Adi I really like you, but I also really suffer from all what happened and I CAN´T stop thinking about everything when his little sister visits me all day, talking about nonsense and MY EX is till have feelings for"?? What??
She said she ´d understand this and it´s okay for her. What happended? Two days later..the door bell rang again...dadaaaam...(again the deep sound) and so on and so on....she always comes over to smoke a cigarette with me before she´s visiting her boyfriend which is (oh what LUCKY CIRCUMSTANCE -.-) my neighbour....
She was in France now for 10 days...damn it that we were on holidays the same time, I hoped to get some more free time...
So..."the cigarette" needed about 1 hour...so I had no real time to talk to my cutie...and I know she´s not feeling good at the moment and I hate it not to be able to be there for friends when they need me...I had no time to work at the present....I heard some stupid storys about some stupid people I don´t even know...AND I know every damn news about HIM. Oh I´m SO feeling better, knowing that now he´s in such a bad mood because his wife (they parted ONE year ago and she is the mother of his son, who is living with him, and she´s ....how to tell it nice....not possible, so she is a CRAZY BITCH. Actually I never met her but I know what she did to him and her two children and I don´t wanna know more...) FINALLY moved to Berlin....DAMN He should celebrate! All the time of our relationship he was talkin about how hard he wishes that she finally will move and leave his live....so SHE DID ASSHOLE  stop feeling sorry for youself at long last and get back a life for you and your son.  I know you got hurt and you are still but damn you are hurting people, too without even recognizing it!
Yah...so lovely to know that somebody you still care about so much, even if he treated you like shit, suffers from his last relatinship...
Wanna destroy something right now....Fuck it.....

Will work on the present now -.-

Who the fuck invented this shit called reality? Wanna go to finland and become a sick drug addictet semi-rockstar *is going to merry her son* -.-

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