my life

[traumadrama06]

I sit here at my computer desk with a roll of paper towels and a stuffy nose. Pictures of beautiful amazing kristen lye all around me. I read the notes she has written me. The book of our relatioship....and i cry so much for what ive done to her. I cant bear myself anymore. How could i be so stupid. I am beyond stupidity. I am a fucking idiot. I

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[minimorgan]

... there really arent any words to describe how I feel at the moment. I feel so many things at once- sadness, wonder, confusion, regret, loss. all that.. and some part of me that wants to forget about all the bad things that have come our way as a couple.. and as friends. I dont mean to depress you any more.. and im already sorry for whatever i ever did to you in the past... but a part of me inside just wants to move on and away from you and seek happiness within myself and others. and what does that matter anyhow? as of right now i dont feel like i owe you anything.. i have these flashes of anger when i see you at certain times.. a flash of the past when i see you at others.. and even still.. my past love brings a flash of happiness on rare occasions. Ever since that Tuesday night when i had my hair all cut off and short.. a big change occured. Probably the biggest change ive experianced in a long time.. but that wasnt the end of my hurt.. a lot of things youve lied to me about makes it hard to be tender towards you. I guess the

[anonymous]

p.s. i think you should leave kristen alone