You're welcome to come to Boston for the summer and get an apt. with me...always.
The New Zealand idea is always something I'd drop everything for. Best place I've ever been and I never wanted to leave and sometimes regret having done so.
This whole "control/abuse" thing that I hear so consistently alluded to worries me. This is NOT an age where someone should be breathing down your neck to make particular decisions or tell you how to act/where to be. If you're feeling cornered by someone (I don't know whether or not this is the boyf), you really ought to leave because you'll only regret it down the road when you missed out on experiences and opportunities. Even if they feel like a nice warm place to rest your head at the moment. Seriously.
much of the control is from my father, mainly because he cares so much that he doesn't realize the effect his power has in dominating my life. its always been like that, I guess now that I'm 20/21 I just don't want to have to deal with his negativeness anymore. but so much of what I do is because of his influence, so thats why I very much so love him but hate it at the time. I just feel like whenever I make a decision on my own he shits, but he does it in a really demeaning way. but I know its b/c he just doesn't know any better.. I do want to get away from it all really badly... I just can't wait till I'm on my own and not I'm dependent on anyone (where I am financially stable, at least so I have power to manipulate my own life the way I choose).... I'm sure you know what I mean... I just need to be me.
I have to agree with Jaimster if the person you're railing on about is the bf. That being the case, my advice to you would be GET THE FUCK OUT NOW! It only gets harder the longer you wait. I just got out of the worst relationship I've ever been in and its great.
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The New Zealand idea is always something I'd drop everything for. Best place I've ever been and I never wanted to leave and sometimes regret having done so.
This whole "control/abuse" thing that I hear so consistently alluded to worries me. This is NOT an age where someone should be breathing down your neck to make particular decisions or tell you how to act/where to be. If you're feeling cornered by someone (I don't know whether or not this is the boyf), you really ought to leave because you'll only regret it down the road when you missed out on experiences and opportunities. Even if they feel like a nice warm place to rest your head at the moment. Seriously.
Love and miss you so...
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